Hi Everyone,<P>Please pray that I get a job. The economy is even worse now since the beginning of September. The unemployment money was not enough to cover all bills and now that has run out. <P>I will take any job that comes my way.<P><BR>If it was not bad enough...Tony was caught cheating on me again. He has been chatting women up on the intenet. I have known for about two weeks now. <BR><p>[This message has been edited by Pahakissa1 (edited October 03, 2001).]

Dear Paha<P>No wonder you have been 'too' quiet. You will not discourage us by posting what is going on in your life, and by letting us know we can keep you in prayer - sometimes we need more than one praying, ya know? Don't be proud or embarassed, Paha. We love you, and want the best for you.<P>***<BR>Dear Heavenly Father,<BR>I lift up my friend to you and pray for your mercy, Lord that you would help her to have wisdom and take care of all of her needs. Lord, I also rebuke the spirit that causes infidelity in her marriage in the name of Jesus, and ask Lord that you loose upon Pahakissa peace and joy that passes all human understanding, through your son, Christ Jesus. Lord, I pray that you will give her work to do that glorifies you. <BR>Lord, guard her mind, her heart, and her body from all harm, and I pray that she will find herself knowing you so personally that she will know exactly what path to follow when you open the doors for her. Father, I pray that her desire is to seek and follow you, and I pray your deliverance from poverty and worry upon Pahakissa.<BR>In Jesus Name, your son, who died to give Pahakissa a right to receive your blessings,<BR>Amen.

Oh Paha, I am sooooooooo sorry about your H and about the whole job situation. Yes, no wonder you've been quiet. <P>Lord, I lift Paha and her H up to you for healing. I pray that you can touch her H in a way that will allow him to take responsibility for his actions and see the pain he has caused -- I pray that in this he finds forgiveness and healing and in turn, begins to work at healing his marriage. I pray that he does whatever it takes to let Paha know he can be trusted again.<P>I pray that Paha can find a job. Not just a job, Lord, but THE BEST JOB FOR HER. I pray that it opens soon, pays well, and gives her a sense of accomplishment.<P>I pray that you heal Paha's heart and soul -- there is a hole there right now.<P>Let Paha know she has friends who love her and send her the best and brightest wishes for healing. <P>IJN, Amen.<P>Love, Sheryl

Hi Everyone,<P>Thanks for the prayers. It does help.

How'd you change your user name? <P>Paha, during this time of unemployment, have you given some thought to what you would ultimately love to do if all obstacles were removed? I don't know about you, but I've struggled long and hard with feeling like I'm not really good at anything. I know it's the result of my H's treatment of me and the erosion of my self confidence. Your prolonged period of unemployment is definitely a hit to the ol' self confidence factor. Tony isn't helping matters either. Do you think there's a connection between Tony and your difficulty in obtaining employment? It's time for you to rise up to the challenges of your life, and such heavy weights seem to be holding you down. Have you tried anything different over the last couple of weeks?

Hi LH,<P>Mom was visiting so I was off line the entire time. Nothing like having the Mommies to papper me. [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] <P>Mom thinks that I am in such a bad state because of Tony. She thinks he such a detrament to my very being. Nothing that at least one therpist said as well. <P>In the beginning when I was laid off from work I really was a messed up individual. The people at work attacked me (namely two people). I was so happy to get out of there. Before I left a couple of people left. Plus Tony is not the best person to help lift people up. So I was self defeating in job interviews. <P>I have learned my lesson now. I still have a major way to go. I have a part time job now modeling Epson printers. One guy at the store was rather brisk with me. If it was the old me I would have not even thought about it...but he made me cry. So I know that I still have major emotional issues to work through.<P>Right now I am reading a book about emotional eating. I have a lot of issues with that. It is a six week work book. I would much rather do the book and go back to the diatician I have been seeing. She can be very cruel with her remarks. I do not need cruel right now I need a friend. <P>Tony in the past few days has been rather mean. It is making me dead inside. I know he is toxic and I want it to all end. I just need to find a way to either get him to leave or ship up.