Hi Everyone,<p>Sorry I have not been posting much. All of Tony's stuff is gone. Well the stuff he asked for. I thought long and hard and decided not to give him items that he did not ask for. OK big ticket items that I either wanted or could sell for money. I know it was probably not right but I have emotionally and financially been placed through the ringer by him and his family. <p>The family representative asked about some of the stuff and I said if it was not on the list he could not have it. BTW it was already agreed to in court by their lawyer that all they wanted was the items on the list. So too bad too sad. Maybe next time they will try and work with me and not accuse me destrying all his property and bully me. And the cop was a witness that everything worked before it was placed on the truck...so they can not even sue me for damage. <p>Well one hurdle down a million to go.

Oh sweetie (((((Pahakissa))))) I know this was hard, but necessary. [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img] <p>It IS a good thing, but you're right... it seems like a million to go.<p>How are you otherwise? Job prospects yet???

That's great news Paha!!!! What a relief that must be. Hope you can sell the remainder of Tony's stuff to ease your financial hardships. <p>Today was my first Saturday of being separated. It was such a big hurdle to get through the separation. Like you said, now there's just a million left. LOL. I made the mistake of setting too many goals for today. I felt terribly overwhelmed and accomplished very little. At 5:30 I put feng shui at the top of the list. Headed for the attic and pulled out several empty boxes. So many things are hanging over my head. Now I'm slogging through some dreaded paperwork. I also had a print in the office that I removed. An artist did a watercolor of a local waterfront scene, which included the street's name on top of a stop sign. I decide I didn't like seeing a stop sign every time I came in this room. That's my feng shui update. Slow and steady is the way to go I guess. When I try to muster up a whirlwind of accomplishment, my day just falls flat!

Sheryl,<p>Thank you so much. It was hard because the movers were not told the conditions and then having to go trough everything with them. The police officer wanted to know the entire story. So my plan was to make it through the morning and then relax.<p>I have not heard about the job. God must be teaching me patience and trust in Him... I am trying not to worry but I am. One day at a time. That is all I can. Try and pray that I hear about the job I interviewed for. It is what I want to do.<p>Sheryl how are you doing? Any better? As my Mom tells me try not to be so hard on yourself. When I find myself putting me down and self doubt I make myself say positive things about myself and all the good I have done. <p>LH --- Well one step at a time that is all we can do. I am going to change all the rooms. Like you have empty boxes in the attic and stuff I have yet to unpack. Plus all the paperwork just lying around. I am going to go through one room at a time. De-clutter the room and fueng shui it. At this point it can not hurt.<p>Tomorrow I am going to church and then come home, look for a job, and then start work on the upstairs. It is just my office and bedroom. So it will be somewhat light. I am just going to start clearing some stuff out and decide what to do with everything. <p>I have to really say a major thanks for my neighbors. They have been really supportive and helpful to me. God really did bless me with a wonderful neighborhood. Even the police officer who came to supervise the move said so.

Good Morning Paha!!!
I am so proud and so happy and so ??????
Just having a huge rush of emotions and wonderful feelings about what you have accomplished.
Paha, you are just GREAT!!!
((((((((((((((((paha)))))))))))))))

Hi CL,<p>Thank you so much for the praise. I do not feel I have acomplished much. For that matter I do not feel strong right now. <p>I do know I have made the first step to get out of the cycle. I guess just that is a huge step. <p>How are you? I have been thinking about you and wondering how you are holding up. ((((CL)))) Not sure but something tells me you could use a hug. [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img]

Paha, just wondering how you are doing?<p> <blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr>I do not feel I have acomplished much. For that matter I do not feel strong right now. <p>I do know I have made the first step to get out of the cycle. I guess just that is a huge step.<hr></blockquote><p>You have made more steps toward helping yourself this time than any other time - that is HUGE, and you gotta learn to give yourself pats on the back!<p>My IC counselor said I am so good at giving - but what is it about "receiving"? Seems I try to protect myself on the "receiving" end.... Even when I should be giving to myself, I have some trouble there.... Could it be as a result of protecting ourselves after being in abusive relationships?<p>Anyway, maybe you don't feel like it is such a big deal, but from the outside looking in - it sure LOOKS like it is a big deal. I am proud of you too.<p>TNT

Hi Tnt ---<p> I just answered you on your thread. I hope you do not think I was being too harsh. I just think you do not deserve this type of behavior.<p>Thank you so much for your confidence. I do know I am getting better. There are times. I still have major set backs. But one day at a time.