I'm new here & I have read Stormie Omartian's book, The Power of a Praying Wife, it is good! I need to get back at doing that, praying for my H. Our relationship is suffering terribley b/c of his lack of parenting skills/compassion for MY children. We are both on our 2nd marriage, and have children previously and one together. The one together has been the reason to stay together. At first it was for God, then I grew to hate my H for treating my kids poorly. I am now reading the book by Dr. James Dobson, "Raising Boys" and NOW convinced that I NEED to stay for these 3 boys(mine & ours). The father role is most important for boys and my 2 from previous don't see their biological dad. My boys love my H and are very forgiving for his humanness, I'm NOT. NOW, at this point I need to be praying for myself as well! haha I just don't understand why it is so hard to bond with these 2 boys that totally accept him and love him w/ all his faults. It is hard to watch, it hurts. I tell H everytime I see his behavior being not good for them, he gets very angry that I even bring it up, as I don't have the right!! He 'claims' that he is like ANY father w/ their boys, I think he is different b/c they aren't his.
I have decided to make this work, for the boys, ALL of them, but it is SO hard. I'm starting to think my H will never be the way I want him to be w/ my boys and I need to accept that, since the boys have, it just hurts, they are just children and want and DESERVE love, why does H have to take everything the do wrong SO personally? I wish I could do this alone, w/out a father for them, but after reading this book, I see that would be worse.
BTW- we have been married 2 1/2 yrs. I'd rather be single, my pastor says it is OK to stay together for the children, yippee! [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img]
Why is it SO hard?!?!?! I have rambled, thanks anyone who read it all!
Chloe
