Well, I went to the counselor (inserts shouts and screams from the crowd).<P>I do like her. She's about my age, has kids, is married ... does stutter also in her collection of verbal thoughts.<P>Not much happened. We went over the basics, we didn't solve any of my problems, but she did acknowledge that I have problems (yippee...a breakthru).<P>I did find out that I had buried the pain, and to talk and "re-live" it all was very very emotional and painful. I was pretty worn out after that encounter.<P>I'm to see one of the MD psycharists in two weeks for a physical evaluation and possible change to my anti-deps. I have appts. set into January with the counselor, every other week.<P>Yes, I'll go. Thanks for all the support guys. I want to apologize once again for all the abuse I've been passing around the forum lately. This just isn't the real Maya. Maybe I'll be finding HER real soon!

Oh, Maya, the "real Maya" is on her way back. I can hear her coming!!!<P>Good for you. Step 1, over, done, completed.<P>I've worried so much about you lately. I'm so glad to see that you're heading in the right direction.<P>(And, yes, I was screaming w/ the rest of the crowd!! )<P>Hang in there, girl. You're gonna be just fine.<P>Lori

I thought long and hard to come up with this little bit of wit and charm... <P>Good for you, happy for you, and keep it up.<P>Ok, I Couldn't really think of anything, but I did think and try to come up with something. Maybe after coffee! <P>Still in my prayers there Maya!

Great job Maya. Stick with it, and I'm betting Y2K will be much better for you.

Good for you, Maya... like everyone said, stick with it. I think liking your counselor is a really important first step. You’ll do great, cuz you want to! <P>------------------<BR>Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die

Yes, hon, you "done good" <P>------------------<BR>Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you are among the stars!!

Maya, I had to smile when you said she didn't solve any of your problems in your first session. I always want to be whacked with the "magic-make-it-better stick" myself.<P>Time, patience...more time, more patience...reapply as needed. <P>Good for you.<P><P>------------------<BR>Lor<BR>"Do not get tired of doing what is right, for after awhile you will reap a harvest of blessings if you do not get discouraged and give up. (Gal 6:9)<P>

I agree with Lor, wouldn't it be nice to just "poof" and things are all better.<P>But it takes a lot to get where we are, and will take a lot to get where we are going.<P>But, I know you will make it. <P>God Bless you. And thank you for the update! <BR>TNT

Wonderful news!! God is great!!<P>MONDO HUG!!!!<P>------------------<BR>God Bless,<BR>Rob<P><BR>

Pile on the crap Maya, that's why we're here. Besides, we can ignore you if we wish. <P>The first few months I was seeing the counselor, everytime I finished I was totally burned out. I told her, "and I have to pay for this abuse?!?" It may be a bit painful, but it sure is refreshing.<P>------------------<BR>Prayers & God Bless!<BR>Chris<BR>For relationship info check out <A HREF="http://www.pcisys.net/~chriscal1/resources.html" TARGET=_blank>Marriage & Relationship Resources</A><p>[This message has been edited by Chris (CA123) (edited November 30, 1999).]

Bravo!<P>You did it! We're routin' for ya, kid. And hey, you may even find that you find the counselling interesting after awhile. I felt that way. Lots of food for thought.<P>Good luck and we're here for ya.

Maya,<P>GREAT! A good counselor and maybe a meds change and the new Maya will be back and as sassy as ever!!!! <P>Maybe going through all this pain in the session means you can leave some behind each and every time - slowly release the hurts.....<P>Really PROUD of you for fighting against yourself and WINNING!!!!!!!!! <P>Roll Me Away<P>------------------<BR>"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."<P>Sir Humphry Davy<BR>