I feel like I can't do anything right. I was downloading e-mail, I stopped it before it was done downloading everything. Now I can't get it to receive our e-mail that was still sending before I stopped it.<P>My H got a job with IBM in about 6 phone calls and about 3 hours of trying. I can't even get a job unless it's at the local fast food resturant. <P>My H gets along better with people. He has lots more friends than I do. He gets along better with his co-workers. (My co-workers are the ones who probably got me fired from my last job)He has at least 5 really close friends. Other tha my H, I don't have any realy close friends that I can talk to.<P>I just wish I could be as smart as my H. I want to be able to make him proud of me. I want him to be proud of the job I have, of the parent I am (need to be), as the wife I know I need to be.<P>I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. If this is all the problems I have, I must be lucky. There are many people who have worse problems than I do.<P>Sorry, I just needed to get out so that I can think better. Our e-mail is now downloading so I guess if I'm just more patient than I should do lots better

Instead of listing the things you don't like about you, list the ones you do. You have so many good qualities, and you are the only one that can't see them. Trust me, I am speaking from experience. Don't worry so much about making your H proud of you, worry about making you proud of you. Keep you chin up, you can do this.<P>------------------<BR>To thy own self be true.<BR>*Viki<P><BR>

Hopeful, that's your Mom talking again. Tell her to shut up.

Hi Hopeful,<P>Instead of thinking about being not worthy think of how wonderful you must be to have such a great Husband. If you were really as awful as you think you are at this moment in time would such wonderful people want to be around you? <P>YOU ARE WONDERFUL Now tell yourself this. You just need to change your mind set. I know that when I caught Tony cheating on me. Mind you this is the second major relationship I have been in that I have been cheated on. I really felt that no one in there right mind must love me... because I always seem to get dumped on. Well I really would force myself to change that line of thinking. Instead of thinking I was awful.. I would say awful things happen to good people.<P>DO you really want to work at a place that treats their employees like that? NO right? Try and see it for a blessing. You now have the time to really focus on what you want to really do in your life. Time to examine where you want to do career wise not just job wise and where you want to be in say one year, five years and even ten years. <P>

Thanks for the smile Dazed. I think I needed that and yes I think your right. So I'm going to do what you suggested. <P>"SHUT UP MOM!!!!!!"

Atta girl!<P>My shrink uses a cassette tape metaphor. You're playing an old tape in your head. Take it out and throw it away. Then put in a fresh one.<P>That'll be $80 please. <P>(That's what I pay, anyway...)

Hopeful,<BR>Read this, it should help:<BR><A HREF="http://www.gospelcom.net/rbc/utmost/devo/utmost.shtml" TARGET=_blank>"By the Grace of God I Am What I Am"</A><P>Don't be so hard on yourself. You are still smart, you have ES. He will be there to help you get through this. He is supporting you.<P>Besides you have all of us here as your friends.<P><BR>MONDO HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!<P>------------------<BR>God Bless,<BR>Rob<P><BR>[This message has been edited by professorg (edited November 30, 1999).]<p>[This message has been edited by professorg (edited November 30, 1999).]

Dazed - you crack me up!!!<P>Hopeful - glad to see you take Dazed advice.....she's great - Isn't she?<P>Now, why are you being so impatient? Relax, woman!!!! LOL!!<P>You are a wonderful person who has not found her career niche yet.....join the club!!!! I had my career cut short by powers beyond my control and I carried (and still do to some extent) a lot of guilt and self-doubt because of it!!<P>But you know what I figured out? It just wasn't what I was supposed to keep doing.....simple as that!!!! <P>Finances are lousy - just like the marriage ending and all the rest of the crap in my life.....but it is all leading me somewhere!!! Wherever that is has GOT TO BE BETTER than where I have been the past 6 years!!!!<P><BR>So, relax and let God take you for a ride!!!!! You'll see more and more things fall into place soon!!!<P>Have you been writing at all....now's a time to do some - get some of your frustrations down on paper. Who knows you may sell a story or something!!!!<P>HUGS,<P>Sheba

Dazed - Where do I send your money to? Or will I be getting an official bill for that soon? Can I use my insurance for that? <P>Just thought I'd have some fun with it.<P>Sheba - don't know what I'd write about. Haven't really thought about it much. I guess I just haven't been all that creative much lately, except for maybe on presents.<P>Thanks for the smiles guys.

Uh, you could just post your credit card number here?!? <P>Then we could all use it when were feeling down & need a boost. Besides with hubby working at Big Blue now.<P>Just kidding. <P>------------------<BR>Prayers & God Bless!<BR>Chris<BR>For relationship info check out <A HREF="http://www.pcisys.net/~chriscal1/resources.html" TARGET=_blank>Marriage & Relationship Resources</A>

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Chris - you're such a predator!!! LOL!!<P>Hopeful - ignore him...he's still mad cuz they didn't use this suggestion for the book "how to make friends and influence people".....<P>hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!<P>HUGs,<P>Sheba

Credit card? Whats a credit card? I don't have one of those. Wait, my H has one, maybe I can borrow his. Actually he stazrts at IBM on the 13th of the month.<P>Sheba- I think my mom could write that book actually. Look t the number she does on me once a month or so........ Shall I have her talk to Chris????LOL

ES got a job YES YES YES<P>Hopeful - I love your name. Now maybe we should change it to "doubting"???? NO !!!<P>You are a fantastic person. You are in a slump that will not last. Think positive and make that list of your good qualities. You are going to need to pump your self esteem up so you can sell yourself to that new employer.<P>ES got a good job with a new company, I think that your ship will be coming in for BOTH of you! It's about time for the positives to begin again, isn't it? <P>Hang in there.<P>Blessings of JOY to you. <BR>TNT

Okay, positive qualities. I can do that. Hey Empty Shell, what are some of my positive qualities. Maybe if I see them listed it will help my self esteem. It could happen.<P>Hey, maybe fast food worker was to be my career in this world????? I don't think so but hey it was worth a good laugh.<P>Maybe I just need to make bacon and poptarts for dinner tonight.......

Hopeful -<P>You're making me laugh!!!<P>Poptarts and bacon......don't even go there!!!!<P>LOL!!!!!<P>HUGS,<P>Sheba

But I like bacon and I like poptarts. ES likes bacon for breakfast and on BLTs, doesn't really like poptarts, but wouldn't it be fun

Throw a salmon in the mix, and I'm there for dinner! <P>You're gonna be fine, hopeful, just one of those days...<P>Hugs, Sheryl<P><P>------------------<BR>Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you are among the stars!!

Hey, you guys are too much fun over here, so thought I would crash the party!!! <P>Hopeful, your spiffed up resume could list your experience as a Gourmet Chef. Of course, I wouldn't mention the bacon and pop-tart thing, myslef HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!LOL!!!<P>Dazed, check your calendar, please. Can you fit me in for a session this week???? I like your no-nonsense counseling session to hopeful! <P>Chris, I DO like your idea about hopeful posting ES's credit card here. Wouldn't that be a nice thing to do to uplift ALL their friends here!?!?!?<P>Roll Me Away<BR><P>------------------<BR>"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."<P>Sir Humphry Davy<BR>

Don't even start with the poptart thing again Hope!! I still can't watch the kids eating them without a shudder. Hey just wanted you to know that things will always work out for the best in the end. You will find the job you are supposed to have when you find it. Just keep your chin and your attitude up.<P>R