Why do I keep LBing?????<BR> This morning at 6:00 am while waiting for my D bus, that didn't come, I went around back to get the car to take her to the transfer area were she transfer to another bus. The special school she attends is quite a ways from the house.<BR> I pull up to the front to get her and<BR>H walks up to the car and says, " Do you want me to take her?" I was alittle upset to say the least, I couldn't say anything....<P>I just gave him a discussted look and told my D to get into the car. I thought of saying I have to get use to doing all this by myself anyway(guilt thing)<P>but why couldn't I have just said sweetly <BR>no I'll do it. I feel like LB all the time<BR>with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>He works 40 miles away in the oppisite direction but he has taken her to school before.<BR>Could it be that since my bank is empty that I just want to rage at him all the time? <BR>I'm just so tired of it all. I feel there is no reason to go on being nice, when I get no notice at all and who<BR>cares about later? So he won't have a "safe haven" to come home to.... I'm just sooooooooooooooooooooo tired of this ride <P>I WANT OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <P>------------------<BR>Peg

Peggy,<P>We all have our moments. I know, I feel this week like my H could care less about me, so why bother. I am sure its part of the roller coaster we are all on. Take one day at a time, in my case I am going hour by hour right now. Don't make any harsh decisions when you feel this way. <P>I am going to put some of my favorite bible verses in here. These give me peace when I am down. I am not an expert, only been reading it for about 6 weeks. But so far this is what I found.<P>Do Not Worry<P>Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.<P>Ask Seek Knock<P>Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. <P>Ecclesiastes 7:14<P>When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other.<P>Be patient. We are all here for you in your time of need and someday, somehow, we will understand why we are going through all this. Don't be so hard on yourself today.<BR>

You always seem to be there for me when I need some one Thanks..<P>I need to get back to my Bible. I had it out alot 18mons. ago but it has gotten dusty.<P>Your right one hour at a time...... I keep changing moods like a camilion(sp?) [you know the little lizard thing....] <P>------------------<BR>Peg