H tells me they are only friends. This morning I find two valentines day cards in his truck. He is furious that I looked at them. If they are only friends what is the problem. The OW is going to be out of town for a week and she wanted to let him know how much she will miss him and she will call him soon. She also said that knowing he is reading the card will make things bearable for her. (Gag ugh) Did he think I would really believe still that nothing is going on and these cards were just from a friend calling him baby and all my love. What a joke. Well I ripped them up and put them in the garbage. I guess he wanted to read them again and I found them taped back together in the wood stove ready to be burnt. Maybe he was too drunk last night to remember what they said. I think that this tells me it is time to call the lawyer and proceed with the divorce. <P>In fact, I just go a letter from my lawyer wanting to know how to proceed. I guess my H and the OW just made my mind up for me. I just hate the fact that he still tells me they are just friends and he doesn't want a long term relationship with her. I told him we could be divorced in a month and then he would be free to be with the fat a**ed bar fly. Sorry but I couldn't help it.

bc,<P>I started posting a reply but must have punched an incorrect key by mistake. <P>Basically, I know exactly how you feel. Unfortunately I've done the bouncing ball act for 4 years - sometimes I wonder why I keep putting up with it....scared I guess.<P>You must be the one to be able to live with <B>your</B> decision. <P>{{{{{{{{{{bc}}}}}}}}}}

{{{{{bc}}}}}<P>I've been keeping up with your Posts and I'm sorry about what you just found from your H.<P>At the moment, I can't say anything constructive. I'm feeling pretty crappy right now.