I am so tired of this emotional rollercoaster. One moment I get my hopes up because he left his favorite picture and the next minute I get more crap. I am saying Good-bye for a few days. This forum is a daily reminder of how much my marriage is in the toilet. H doesn't wait anything to do with me, at least today, so Marriage Builders in the wrong place for me right now. I'l be poking around, making sure everyone elses lives are going smoother than mine, byt I'm not going to post for a while. I've been farting around with this since February and now the summer is almost OVER. My tan is even gone now. I'm taking these last few weeks of summer to love up my daughter, make the house my home, get back to a job I enjoy, and do things that I want. I'm not going to dwell over this jerk I married anymore. I need to feel good about myself, what makes me happy and be the person that I feel I am inside. <BR>Thank you all for your support and thoughts and hugs. It means the world to me.<BR>Take care of yourselves. I will be back, I've got to many friends here not to check in on.<BR>Like the song goes, " Don't be reckless with other peoples heart, and don't put up with people that are reckless with yours."<BR>Lot of Love, God is watching us and making us stonger. <BR>Love you all<BR>cc<P>"If you don't know what you want, You usually don't like where your at."<BR>

ceecee - it's time for you. I'm gonna miss your posts, though. Be sure to check in w/ us and let us know how you're doing. You've made some good friends here (me for one). I look for your advice on every post.<P>Take this time for you. Do whatever you need and whatever you want. You've certainly earned it! Gotten to know you pretty well on this forum - there's a great future out there for you. Shame on the moron for not realizing it and sharing it with you. One day I know you'll get the happiness you deserve. No doubt about it. You've already started making it.<P>I'll be thinking about you, my friend. Take care of yourself. Hey, don't forget we are all here if you need to talk. Or feel free to e-mail me if you like.<P>-Lori<P>

cc,<P>So sorry to see you go. Please come back because you have really been kind to me a nd have given me wonderful advice.<P>I pray for you and believe God that however this works out it is for the best. <P>Sending you much love and support -<BR>God bless you<P>Liza<P>------------------<BR>Luv, Liza<P>Never fear, because God walks right beside you, and if you get tired, he will lift you up and carry you.

CeeCee -<P>We're here if you need us....<P>When you write new stuff - post it for me - will ya???<P>Take care of yourself and your little one and do what you can towards the goal of doing what needs to be done for you!!<P>Hugs and Strength,<P>Sheba

I understand taking a break for a while! It helps us to do this. <P>Have you tried one of those Sunless Tanning Lotions? It's been working for me to save my Colorado River Tan I got on my vacation. I miss my tans from living in So California - now I'm in MN - and am trying to save it!!! It does work! I even dared to lighten my hair while in California. I look in the mirror and love it.<P>Take GOOD CARE of yourself. You are worth it.