Dear friends: The deadline has passed and I have no gun permit in my possession. The plastic that I had bought for clean-up purposes is scheduled to be used for painting my youngest daughters room. I started to go downhill this weekend. I don't know if it had to do with my daughter's miscarriage of her second child or what. I did ask my spouse if he was only being nice to me so I would not hurt myself and he told me no. He told me the reason why he was being nice was because he loves me. I closed my eyes and prayed for peace in my head. I have to take things slow. My brain cannot take things too fast. I become confused and distraught. I keep reading all of your posts that you sent me to keep me going. I just told Sparkydog that I was going to call the OM today just to talk(he was a friend to me before), but I prayed to give me strength and not make anymore mistakes. My brain will not let me move on. I waited a long time for my spouse to show me so much love and I can't screw it up now. Today, I am doing ok. I am trying to make plans for each evening. Last evening, I went for a ride on my motorcycle and just enjoyed the scenery. This evening, I plan to have some milk and cookies with my girls and finish watching the "Beach Boys." I noticed that Brian Wilson has/had similar symptoms that I am experiencing. Of course, I don't know if his were environment induced or from birth(for lack of a better word).<BR>Thank you for checking on me. Lostva: I did see your post on Sparkydogs post. Thank you for your hug and concern. I spiritually received it with open arms. My love and prayers to you all.

sobeit, check out the plain on my topic....anyone from MO.....maybe you can come<BR>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"It took me quite a while to realize that <B>the real deal</B> is to be able to be enough of a person your own to know when somebody loves you and cares about you"<BR>----Stevie Ray Vaughan<P>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Sobeit,<BR>Please hang on to your H's words. He really loves you!! You can breathe easier knowing that. <P>Have a good evening and take care!<P>Prayers,<BR>Mitzi

sobeit,<P>I can bearly do any typing/reading for the next few days because of complications with my appendectomy (vision blurriness). Bit I saw your post and couldn't resist. I'm gald the deadlome passed. You were so much in my prayers... <P>Jim

<P>(((((((((((((((((SOBEIT))))))))))))))))))))<P>always remember.....on days you don't have faith in yourself, WE here have faith in you...<P>one moment, one hour, one day at a time...<P>Dylan

{{{Sobeit}}}<P>Just wanted to send some hugs, prayers, and support your way. I'm thinking of you daily and praying you continue to see the positives in life. Have a great day <P><BR><P>------------------<BR>Allen<BR>sparky_dog_mb@yahoo.com

<BR>{{{{{{{{{{Sobeit}}}}}}}}}}<P>------------------<BR>Peg

{{{{{{{{{{{{Sobeit}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<BR> HI! Glad to see ya!<BR>B<P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>

Thank you to everyone for your words of kindness. I will continue to hang in there. Right now I am listening to the rain passing through as I am suppose to be working. Have a good day! My love to you all.