It is one year this morning that I confronted H. A lot of things have happened in this year. Not all bad either. In that year We had a new grandson and my son receive a kidney transplant and is doing great. I was able to enjoy my new grandson and spend lots of time with his older brother. Of course you all know the bad things that have happened this year.<P>I would be feeling a lot worse if I didn't feel that we have made some small steps. I do know he is starting to realize things. So there is hope. <P>I know I have change a lot in this year. A lot of growth I just hope I have a chance to show him that. <P>I am looking for a lot of changes good one in the next year. I plan on being in a total different place this time next year.<BR>Hopefully with my H!!!!!!!! <P>One thing for sure, I am not in tears and I don't feel like I did a year ago. So I have come a long way and still have a long way to go but I feel that I am more then half way there. <P>I just want to say I don't think I could have made it through these past few months without all of you here. My only regret was I didn't find you a year ago. <P>HUGS and Prayers for us all.<P><BR>------------------<BR>di<P><p>[This message has been edited by SDS (edited March 17, 2000).]

di...<P>It's been one h@ll of a year for you...<P>You have grown...<BR>...and what a pleasure it has been to know you and see some of that growth.<P>God bless you and guide for this next year and all the rest of your life.<P>May there be many more "happier" anniversaries to reflect on in your life...<BR>...and I know they're coming!<P>Your friend...<P>Jim

Thanks Jim,<P>Well I have one coming up in June< June 29 it will be my son's one year aniversary. His kidney transplant will be one year old.<P>How are you doing? Sugar doing better, I hope.<P>------------------<BR>di<P>

Hey Di,<P>Wow, our D days are only a few days apart. My "Anniversary" was March 13 at 0230. I will never forget that date and time.<P>We have all learned so much here. I am a much better person than I was last year. I did't know what was exected of a H. I thought love did it all. Now, I know and can and will be a great H. Maybe not to Val, but, to someone special.<P>I also read with great interest your other post. I have most recently also felt an overwelming calm. I have given my situation to the greater power. When I experience a trigger it no longer drops my stomach to the floor. No more anxiety attacks. The depression is gone. I'm off meds. I don't dwell on the subject of reconsiliation or what I/we did wrong. When I think of them together I know things will work out for me. What ever "the plan" is for me I know it will be for the best.<P>When I picked up the tax info from Val last week I felt absolutely nothing for her. I guess that was a good thing. We were about 18 inches away from each other and nada. I'm sure I would have LB'ed or said something dumb. I got what I came for and "see ya, bye" None of the usual, I love you, hug, kiss. She came downstairs and outside to the parking lot to chat. Don't know if it means anything. I'm waiting for the interpretation from The Man.<P>I am at a great place right now. Sure, I would love to have Val back in my life, but, if that is not in the plan, so be it.<P>I have grown so much because of this situation I am really glad it happened. If not, I would still be stuck in the old me. I didn't him. Now, I admire the guy I turned out to be.<P>Just a thought.<P>Wishing all the Best.<P>Tim