Well, the day I have dreaded has finally arrived. Today I move out. I'm sad. Feeling defeated. After many months of gut-wrenching prayers, accompanied by buckets of tears. Feels like they've gone unheard and unnoticed by God. Today we tell the kids. I'd almost rather die. Such incredible pain in my heart, I can't describe it. Such deep deep sorrow.<P>My only peace comes from knowing that God is in control. My family is in His omnipotent hands. But, knowing what God has allowed thus far in my family makes me wonder how much worse he is going to allow it to get. And how far he will allow it to go.<P>I need a real hug. I need to sit and talk with a friend. But I'm separating from my best friend. And the one I'd like a hug from the most, hates me. *sigh*<P>Thanks for lettin' me bend your ear. I could use a little cheering up.<P>Hope you all had a Happy Easter.

hopefull:<BR> I am so sorry it has come to this. It is hard to understand sometimes, but as has been pointed out much more eloquently by HGBrawner, God works in His time, not ours. And, He works with humans, who have their own free will, and can choose whether to see/follow the path He would choose for them.<P>So, I have no doubt that He hears your pryares, and is working on your behalf...whether your W chooses t listen to Him or not.<P>I hope all goes well with telling the children...that must be SO hard. As you move out please take care of yourself...don't let this overwhelm you.<P>Praying for you...<P>Kathi

Dear Hopeful,<P>I feel terribly for you. I moved out on April 1st, as my W wants a divorce and insists on a seperation. It was the hardest thing I ever did, when I finished moving in and sat down in my new apartment, the awful weight of it all hit me like an avalanche. <P>When that moment arrives for you, remember you are not alone, you will survive, you will see happier days to come.<P>God bless.

I remember the day I moved out like yesterday. I can relate to the feelings of defeat, loneliness and emptiness. My situation changed and we are working on reconciliation. I pray the same will happen for you.<BR>

Thank you for your support. I know deep down that God hears my prayers. I just feel so empty right now. We've delayed telling the kids until tomorrow.<P>Thanks again for taking a moment to encourage me. Your words do have a calming effect.<P>Most of all thank you for your prayers. I need your prayers!

Hopeful,<BR> Geez, I'm sorry for you brother. God won't let you down, HE PROMISED US!!<BR> My W was the one that moved out. If it's any consolation, (And I know it's not) I wish I HAD moved now!!<BR> Every single time in the 7 months she's been gone that I have pulled into our Driveway I'm genuinely disappointed that my W's car isn't in her spot. I tell myself ALL THE WAY around the circle EVERY TIME not to expect it BUT, I can't help it.<BR> Whenever the phone or doorbell rings, I think, MAYBE? Sometimes I think I hear her, smell her, feel her there. She's not.<P> MAYBE the reality of you NOT being there will WAKE her up!! It sure woke ME up!! I'll pray hard for you brother, and wish you good luck in this. <BR>GGOD LUCK & PRAYERS FRANK<P>------------------<BR>desperate<BR>"If yesterday didn't stop today, Why should TODAY stop tomorrow??" <BR>"Wisdom is why!!"<P>