I am so angry I could spit nails!<P>Excuse me while I loose My religion.<P>My W has flipped her f-ing lid! She is so far out there I could scream. In fact I did.<P>That little [censored] has Robin so brainwashed it's not even funny. How can a 17 year old looser punk f-ing kid get ahold of an educated intelligent women's mind and convince her that I can't make her happy.<P>Like his sorry-[censored] painter dope fiend self can. GIVE ME A BREAK!!!<P>I can just hear him whinning" your gonna leave me , I love you robin, he can't make you happy. I know I can if you'll only let me."<P>I'd like to rip his home-reckin lunges out!<P>OH, and heres the real kicker. She tells me I have to see this through. BS! She wants to see it through til the bitter end.<P>I said to her tonight, that I know her feelings for me are coming back and they're stronger than ever. Ya know what she said? I have to find out what they mean. What the hell is that supposed to mean?<P>I'd like to break both his legs and kick his a$$ over his shoulders!<P>What real;y chaps my a$$ is she's buying into this crap!<P>I did some lovebusting tonight, as you can tell. I had to tell her how I felt about somethings. I couldn't be around her tonight and plan-a with her looking as desireable as she does and not get any of my needs met. So I told her we'll have to do the x-mas tree some other night.<P>I have my lovely Abigail for the next 4 days. It's hard being a good dad when her family has been ripped to shreads, and mommy has lost ALL of her good sence.<P>She also told me again that she had alot of respect for me. I couldn't hold it in any l;onger, I said you sure do have a nice way of showing it, by completely f-ing me over like this. That got to her she almost started crying. I did relent at this point and tried to show something other than frustration.<P>ADULTRY SUCKS!!<P>I can't thinmk of anything more horrific to go through.<P>Please forgive me for my profanity, and venom. I needed to vent. Now I'll go ask God to forgive me and help me to love Robin as He loves me.<P>Thanks for letting me rant.<P>I Love You Guys,<P>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

Bill,<P>It's OK... <BR>Vent...<BR>Cry...<BR>Complain...<BR>A little easier on the profanity... but understandable...<P>I too am amazed at how my W hears "things" about me from the OM... when he(OM) knows squat about me... And she buys into it like gospel truth... Yep... she has been so "convinced" that she(my W) has to save my kids <B>from me</B>!... That's why in June... she's going to repetition the courts for physical custody... Argggghhhh!<P>aliens... aliens... Satanic aliens... <BR>addiction or not... it is so hard to fathom... <P>Of course the OM "is such a good man"... "respected in the community"...<BR>damn community of "homewreckers!"<P>Sorry to vent a little with you... it does feel good to let it out...! <P>Let's take a short break...<BR>Catch ourselves again...<P>Prayers Bill... <P>Jim

Jim,<P>Thank for your reply. I have come to count on them.<P>I loved your quote"aliens... aliens... Satanic aliens... <BR>addiction or not... it is so hard to fathom..."<P>I assume from your other posts your wife is a christian like yourself. Mine is. What she fails to grasp is the fact that the is a spiritual war going on for the hearts and souls of God's most sacred institution.<P>We MUST continue our vigilance in the face of our enemy, Satan.<P>We have to be like the marines when they took Iwo Jima. NEVER quit, the island must be taken. I truly believe I will raise my own flag on my mount Suribachi(my marriage)<BR>I have a strong foothold on the beachhead and am moving inland. My supply lines are strong and full. I will meet my objective!<P>Got a little carried away in metephore. I'm feeling a bit passionate tonight.<P>Prayers for us all my friend,<BR>Bill <P><P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

BB,<BR>Don't take it too hard, yes you did love bust, but you are human after all. Just take a step back, reorganize and get back at it. Or fall back, regroup and counter attack !!<P>Hang in there, God will help, if we let him.<P>God Bless

Thanks RWD,<P>God is giving me the close air ground support, and He's also got the artillery covering me flank.<BR>Tonight I believe He's got some heavy bombing raids to soften the lines, I believe they're reaking havoc on thier communication network and thier fuel supplies.<P>So now I'll sit in my foxhole try to rest, eat and prepare myself for tomorrow. I'll fix my bayinet and count my amunition. At 09:45 God has called a staff meeting with all the front line "grunts" I assume we'll have our marching orders for the next battle.OOOHRAH!<P>Onward Christian Soldier.......<P>I'm realy stuck in this metaphore. I think it fits.<P>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

Can I come to this little war too?<BR>I'll bring a 2x4.<BR>Bust some slimy little satanic alien heads...<BR>just what I need...<BR>Deut

Hi, Bill.<P>It's such a hard situation to have to deal with. How can anyone not lovebust, is what I'm thinking. I mean, how can you hold in such pain without bursting??? Are we all robots?<P>I for one, think that so-called lovebusters that are presented in a calm manner can be very positive in nature.. :-)<P>The fact of the matter is that not one person can be expected to not react to this type of behavior. You have every right to be angry, who wouldn't? There are constructive ways to lovebust, IMO, that may just work in a positive light rather than negative. What a hard position you're in right now. Sounds like your wife loves you, wants to be with you, but is just choosing to be with someone for awhile. She would never be happy there for the long term, obviously, but she has to understand that this is not a mini vacation here. This is real life. Vent all you want, you deserve a good vent session.

By all means, we need all the soldiers we can muster to fight the dirty evil one.<P>Our Supreme Commander has laid out the battle plan and is not relenting.<P>So put on your armor and join in.<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

Connor,<P>Thank you for you perspective on this.<BR>I'm just waiting for something to give. Be it him LBing her or her coming to her sences.Time will tell. I had hoped to have the recovery process started by x-mas. I think I'm going to have to push back my timetable or get rid of it all together. He's a dope dealer and he'll get busted before long. I just hope she's not around if that happens. I know it will take what it takes for her to bottom. I hope she can pay the tab, it's getting bigger.<P>Thanks,<BR>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

William, the reason she is continuing with her affair is because she feels no danger of loosing her marriage over this. She may say she respects you but her actions prove otherwise. Of course, you have no control over her behaviour but you do have a choice over whether you have to go along with her betrayal. In my opinion, you should either go for Plan B or file for divorce. You need to send her a loud message that she is in danger of having her marriage fall apart permanently. If you do nothing you are condoning her addiction. Best wishes....max