OK, check in , and update time.<P>First, I feel icky. But, you know I will survive. <P>I've got my mom crying we have to let her die before me. I have no intention of dying ! (for those who don't know I have Hepatitis C, have had for a long time, been through 2 years of treatment did well, have relapsed. This thing is way too common these days.) And people thinking I have no faith because I accecpted the fact that I have this and will be seeking further testing and treatment with the new combo drugs.<P>But anyway, my AuntiePooh called Saturday and informed us that God has laid it on her heart to give us a car she has. So for the first time in over a year we will have a car. Is God good or what !<P>Now on to my rose story, Friday May 5th will be Mike and I's 22nd wedding anniversary. I told him I want a miniture rose bush. He went and got me two. They are tiny tiny things, 2 inch pots, but they are lovely and they have blooms on them one is opening, looks like it will be peach or pink.<P>So here we are, late August early Sept. will be 2 years since d-day of affair # 2 (by his count, he doesn't count e.a's) and even though the health problems are back, the depression is under control. And I think we've made it past all the worst parts. <P>There is hope people , there is.This is the same man who left me for ow # 1 (see y'all I'm even being nice and not calling her wildebeast now) for 1 1/2 years, had inapproprite friendships with a few women besides that, then renewed our vows on our 20th knowing he was having an affair. <P>Stiffen your necks for your marriage, decide you won't give up, hang on to your resolve, don't push them, live life. But know that God loves you and can and will work it all out for your good and for His glory, no matter what happens, He made us out of dirt, we fell, He picked us up and washed us in His blood. Don't give up ! He will let you know when to throw in the towel.<P>Til then, hold on ! <P>------------------<BR>Just call me - Deb<BR>------------------------<BR>The only day I can do anything about is today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not yet mine.<P>

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Deb}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>We love you, Deb!!<P>Lori

Lori,<P>Thank you, I know y'all love, thats what worries me. I think that might mean that y'all are almost as nuts as I am. <P>------------------<BR>Just call me - Deb<BR>------------------------<BR>The only day I can do anything about is today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not yet mine.<P>

Deb, good for you, good for Mike (actually getting you something you asked for, major triumph sometimes!)<P>Like you, I got to the point of divorce these past months. Even served the papers, but...I couldn't file them. I think sometimes we look upon our husbands as our gods and God is a jealous God...he strips us of our crutches, allows us to go stumbling off into the dark, back into the dirt we are made of...then he waits...until we realize we are wholely dependent on Him.<P>As for your ill-health, use the God-given medical talents and medications that are available. God does heal...and he often uses doctors to do so.<P>Take care.<P><P>------------------<BR>Lor<BR>"Let love be genuine...hold fast to what is good; love one another." Rom 12:9-10

Hi Deb...<P>I'll try to e-mail you today...

Lor,<P> You didn't file ? Hooray ! Hon you know we were all praying about this one !<P>You know I think you may be right ! For so many years Mike has been my whole life, him and son. And I realize thats not really fair to any of us. <P>Don't worry I will trust God for healing , but will also do what the doctors say will be best.<P>NoTrust,<P>Got your email, will answer soon. I'm just tired most of the time. I went to the grocery store today and feel like I ran 20 miles.<P>------------------<BR>Just call me - Deb<BR>------------------------<BR>The only day I can do anything about is today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not yet mine.<P>

Hi Deb -<P>I had seen this and thought that I responded...guess not, so here I am!!!!<P>I always knew that you and Mike could make it through this.....knew it since the day I got here!!! Glad to see the steps being made and some things finally falling into place!! <P>You will get through the health part also, Deb!! With the wonderful family and love surrounding you combined with God's help - you will be fine.<P>As Lori said, we all love ya (and Mike too!!) - we'd be NUTS if we didn't!!!<P>BIG HUGS,<P>Sheba<P>PS - Thanks for the kid jokes - I read them over every day and just crack up! I love the "big sissy" one..lollolol!!!<P>

Deb<BR>Just wanted to say hi. You are one strong lady.<BR>I think of you often and you are always in my prayers.<BR>Thanks for the post. You sound good. <BR>It is so nice to read something real and positive. Especially when you've been fighting so long.<BR>You deserve the best and I think Mike will give you that. He's learning. <P>Take care!!!!<BR>

Hi Deb,<P>I am very pleased to read that Mike is being a bit more romantic. I thought you were going to file? Did I see that pop up just of late? <P>I have been praying for you all this time. I will keep it up.