Mystic77...from reading your posts, it is pretty clear you are depressed and who could blame you? What are you doing to help yourself? You can't keep going day to day looking for signs that hubby is coming back or that he will be overcome with remorse and rush back. Don't waste your time wondering about whether or not the OW is listening to your calls or not. If she has nothing better to do the listen in, she must be pathetic. Be better then that. Let your H know that you have more important things to do then play a juvinile game. I know one thing most men can't tolerate is a neediness. It's hard not to act needy when you feel it, but don't let him see it. It is important for you to start taking charge of your life and doing something nice for yourself. Is there a support group in your area for divorced and separated? I know how very hard it is to climb out of the muck when you barely have the strength to get out of bed; however, you have got to think about yourself now. I know you want your H to come back, but in the meantime you can't stop living. Sometimes it seems possible that one can die from a broken heart, but you have to be strong and stop waiting for something that may or may not happen. I know one morning I woke up and I said to myself I am so tired of feeling sad and hopeless, I will not do it anymore. I have my days when the best resolve in the world doesn't help, but I do feel better. I stay clear of anything that reminds me of the past. I try to appreciate little things. Stay away from things that stir up those feelings...pictures, cards, letters, etc. <P>I truly hope you feel better. I can sense your pain right through the computer screen...do something you enjoy this afternoon and this evening. Learn to love yourself. Take care!<P>LS<BR>