Last week started out great but by Friday I hit a major low point on this emotional rollercoaster. Didn't talk to my H too much between Monday and Friday - at least not like we had been during the first few weeks after I told him to leave. Finally, on Saturday we were together with our D for a few hours and things seemed to be going well. There's still that initial uneasiness whenever we get together but it goes away fairly quickly. Today I found myself extremely uneasy and agitated. I had to keep myself very busy because I was afraid I was going to lose it. It felt like that first week after I confronted him and the OW. It was only when he called me at work that I finally calmed down. He asked to spend a few hours with our D this evening and after he picked her up from school he called me again. He said it was so our D could talk to me but I just found out from her that she didn't even know he was calling me. I spoke with her for about 15 seconds and then he and I talked for a bit. He just dropped her off about 45 minutes ago and hung out here. I had a question for him regarding something I had just received in the mail. He looked at it and said "I don't know, honey." It's the first time since this all came to light that he actually used some sort of term of endearment when he talked to me. God, I'm bawling like a baby right now. I don't think he will ever know how much that "honey" really meant to me. And then he had to go. I didn't want to make him uneasy so I just smiled and waved goodbye. God I miss him... <P>------------------<BR>Molli

Good job Molli......remember baby steps,no pressure.The fog is lifting.

Sounds like you did great Molli <BR>Kris

Hey there Molli,<P>Hang in there, girl. Things sound like they are warming up your way. The use of 'honey' is a good sign. My H has stopped calling me that, moved out, and I haven't heard from him in three days. It has been so hard! It's been about a month and a half since there was any kind of love coming from him. Although he has tried to be kind because he know how hard this has been for me. I love him and miss him sooo much, I just don't know how I make it through the day much less a minute.<P>The OW lives in the next building, and although H moved into his own apartment (far 30 min. away) I know when he goes to see her because I can see his car parked in the building. I've asked him to take her to his apartment so that I don't have to see all of that. But, he says he doesn't want anyone (including her) to know where he lives. (go figure?)<P>He admits to being confused and doesn't know where he wants to take the relationship with me. I hope he's doing some soul searching and discovers how much he will lose if doesn't come home.<P>Take care.

Molli,<BR>"Honey" is good. It slipped out! Very good. My H hasn't called me "dear" in years. Used to sound so quaint, but I can't remember the last time he used it. <BR>