As you have noticed I don't post much, but today has been hard. I still read your post everyday for help and advice. I'm not suppose to be speaking to OM, but I'm not doing very well. I slipped on Wednesday he called, wanted me to help him with something and H still doing same thing working out when he gets home and I feel very lonely. H says he doesn't know how to be intimate he wasn't raised that way. He gives me hugs like a friend does and when the OM gives me a hug my head seams to fit so perfect on his shoulder and he feels so good. I know this sounds so horrible and I feel so horrible I want to die. I'm just like all you betrayers I feel ugly and of course I have the nicest, attractive H and I just can't seem to enjoy him for more than just a friend. Well I'm going to go for now. I'm so sorry I shared this with the betrayed but I have no one to talk to and it just builds and builds and I feel like I'm going to explode at times. I'm trying so think about me and I will yall.

All anyone can ask of you is just to try your best. If it was easy there would not be anyone here at all.<P>Thanks for sharing. <P>Do me a small favor, the next time you hug your husband, ask him to play with your hair. And relax a little.

Hello screwedup...<P>I am a slipped up betrayer myself... I know how you feel. Please know that we are here to help each other back up on our feets after we falter...<P>This is a very difficult time for all of us and if you need to talk.... know that we are here to listen....<P>Don't give up.... (What is it about the spring that is doing this to all of us? It is an especially hard time!!)<P>Stay with us....

How'd the weekend go, S?<P>Were you able to spend some good time with your H? --HBC