Okay, if you've read my other posts recently you'll see I am trying to be very positive. I am trying to be upbeat and reminding myself every day that I am a better person than what I was the day before. I see all kinds of positive stuff from my H and I should be happy...but...I don't feel too happy. Talked to H for a while last night and told him I was bummed out because of all of this. I think I am just getting tired. He listened and then we talked about the things that happened when we first started dating. It was a good talk. He called me "honey" again. I smiled at that. I told him he had been very possessive of me in the beginning. He asked me if I wanted him to be possessive now. I said "Yes, possessive of me, not of her." He laughed as little at that. I don't know, is that another baby step? The fact that he would ask me if I wanted him to be possessive of me? If he really wanted to be with her why would he ask me that? So I am going around and around on that one. It seems like things are really coming to an end between him and OW. Sure, he is staying at her house but they hardly do anything together anymore. I talk to him more and more every day. He is supposed to have his own apartment by June 1 but he doesn't seem to happy about it. I'm afraid to ask though. I'd love to hear that he just wants to come home. I'm afraid to hear he wants to keep living with her, though. Oh well, tomorrow's another day and who knows what it may bring. In the meantime, I am trying to remember to smile on the outside but I'm not feeling it on the inside.<P>So, can anyone give me some words of encouragement? Just something to help me get through a couple of more days?<P>Thanks for listening...<P>------------------<BR>Molli<P>Find your strength within!

Hang in there, Molli!<P>It sounds like you've been doing a great job Plan A-ing. Just keep it up a little while longer!<P>Good luck! --HBC

Hi Molli -<P>You are doing great!!!!! HBC is right - just hang in there!<P>I am now going to throw out the MB equivalent of a swearword at you.....<P>Ready?......<P>Patience....lots and lots of PATIENCE!!<P>OK, sorry I know that is not a nice word for us that just want this done with, but it is something we must acquire a lot of!!!<P>Keep up your Plan A, keep up your positive attitude and fill your thoughts with all the wonderful things you and H will accomplish when this "temporary insanity" of his is gone for good!!<P>He's getting there....he's just a little slow!!!! LOL!!! <P>Actually, he is must faster than a lot of others, so take heart in that!!!<P>BIG HUGS,<P>Sheba