Well, not about my H, but ME!<BR>It has been almost a year since D day and I went to my counselers tonight and read her the list I have been making about what I have learned in the past year. She was so proud of me because a year ago she asked me to list something good about myself and all I could come up with was I like to garden.<BR>Pretty sad Huh?<P>But my list was full of things I learned about myself and my marriage and good things about me, and I actually beleive them! I think that is why I need to make a change in my situation. I don't desearve this and I am getting alot stronger and I am ready to take whatever comes. I still want my marriage , but if he can not want it too then He will have to see how he is without it.<BR>Lora

Lora,<P>Hi there you!<P>I didn't know you when you first started riding this rollercoaster a year ago, but in the last few mos I've shared so much with you and had the priviledge to get to know you. Lora, you're a very caring, deep, loving, and yes ... funny and wonderful person. And best of all, you're my friend.<P>You've been so patient with H regarding GladASS, and if you feel the time is right for you, then only you know that. I will be there for you, just let me know what I can do to help if you decide to make a decision.<P>I really do know how this decision can play with your mind by going back and forth, just take your time and we'll pray for God to show you the right path to take.<P>Don't let anyone rush you and do what your heart tells you. Human beings have an innate ability to know how to survive, I think it's instinctual survival that kicks in when we make this kind of a decision. <P>I'll pray a bunch for you tonight. And you get a good nights sleep. Tomorrow's another day with new possibilities.<P>Love ya,<BR>Joanne

Thanks Joanne,<BR>I will wait awhile... after all avoidence is what I do best.<P>Thanks for saying all those sweet things about me. I value your freindship, and think you are pretty special too. Thanks for being there for me.<BR>Lora

Good for you Lora. There is something miraculous about discovering you aren't so scared and downtrodden.<P>Take care.

Good for you, Lora!

Thanks Lor, K and FHL. It does feel pretty good. Maybe I am makeing some progress with me. It was so slow coming that I didn't notice it for a long while.<BR>Lora

Hey Lora,<BR> You like to garden? COME ON OVER!!! <P> It sounds like you're getting more stronger all the time.When the time comes to make a decision,you'll know it.<P> You can make it through this.If I can,(certified wimp),you can too.You deserve better.<P> Just wanted you to know I am thinking about you.Take care,and have a great weekend!<BR>(I'm working,lawnmower's in the shed) <P> ~~Murph/LazyBBum