Sheba,<BR>Thanks so much for taking time to help me. You are so right about slowing down and taking a deep breath. W's words almost exactly. Yes, we talked with JC weekly for around 3 months but kept backing up. She never seemed, in my eyes, too caught up in the recovery. She kept saying she did not want to talk about everything everyday, just wanted to be normal. She never took the iniative to say, "Lets make up our schedule for next week", or "do you want to do feedback?" This lack of iniative got me very frustrated and I began asking why. I was looking to see if she wanted to recover or was just here because of convenience, and because the OM walked away upon my discovery.<BR>My questions got me nowhere, only answers of "I don't know or if you want to" I just wanted to know if she loved me or what. MISTAKE--if she loved me like she should and was able to provide everything I needed, we wouldn't be in this mess anyway, right? So, now I slow down and give her time. Man, I miss her so, though. What she was providing is much better than now. I really love her and want her back. My birthday is Aug, 14th. Guess what I want!<BR>LHC