I have posted here before and really nothing has changed. It's been three months since I found out of my husband's cheating. He says it was only one time, but I believe there were at least two others. I just don't know how to begin to heal. I have read everything here and nothing seems to alleviate this pain and emptiness that I am feeling. I don't understand how to save my marriage. I am angry and disgusted and so hurt. How do I begin to trust him again? How do I let go this hate and let him back into my life, my heart? He says he wants to work things out but he travels so much and likes to go drinking with his buddies. How do I believe anything he says? I am still so confused. I pray to God that I can find strength and peace with or without him, because I can't live like this for much longer. We have two amazing boys that I do not want to screw up. I know I need time but it hurts so much to be with him yet I can't imagine being without him.

GinaM,<P>Trust is a very hard thing to rebuild...<P>But for your own benefit... before Trust building starts...<BR>Talk to God about <B>forgiveness</B> first...<P>Forgiving your H <B>and</B> yourself!<P>There is another forum (non-Harley) that many go to as well. There is a good article on it for the issue of "forgiveness"... check it out...<A HREF="http://www.divorcebusting.com/forumlinks4.html" TARGET=_blank>Forgiveness is a Gift You Give Yourself</A>. It is at the "divorce busters" site.<P>Jim<BR>---------------------------------<BR>Where two or more are gathered...

Unfortunately you have one thing right, there is nothing that will alleviate your pain, but it will ease up given some time and some healing.<P>No matter what, it is going to hurt.<P>Still you can grow and you can learn and you can work toward healing. If not your marriage, then yourself.<P>Take care. You'll find much support here.<P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13