Sorry, I've been gone for a while, I just read the replies to my last thread which was the end of November. Airheart, I want him to get help. And the pathetic part of it is that if it takes me leaving the marriage and getting divorced from him to make him get help, it disturbs me to know that his next relationship will be roses because of my loss, and get the blame from his family to boot. Why does it seem that even tho I am the betrayer...he's going to come out in better than I in the end? That isn't fair. I'm not saying what I did should go unpunished, but I think I have paid my dues with him and his lifestyle of choice. I know nothing is fair in this world...but I'm about fed up with the crappy hand I've been dealt with all my life.<P>------------------<BR>~Bren~<BR> Nothing will happen today that God and I can't handle together.

Hi Bren,<P>Sorry I didn't respond sooner but I was out of town all last week.<P>Has your husband gotten violent any more since your last update? Has he moved against your son at all? I'm worried about your safety.<P>Don't worry about what his family thinks. The important thing is that YOU know the truth. YOU know how difficult and miserable it's been, and how terrible your H has treated you.<P>If your husband does end up getting help and he has a better relationship next time around, you should actually feel good for him. Also, don't forget, you have the opportunity to start over again too, and your next relationship is SURE to be better. I'm sure you've learned alot from this website, and it can't help but make you a better person!<P>Sorry you're feeling bummed right now. Wish I could say something to make you feel better!<P>--andy