My interpretation of this letter is pretty brutal, but the letter itself is pretty brutal, to be honest. <P>Her words: "Believe me when I say I want us to be a whole and complete family again. But I know that if I try now that I will dissapoint you even more by failing you and you will hate me even more than you already do." <P>Translated: "I want to be in a happy marriage with you, however, I intend to keep on seeing the OM, and I know you won't stand for that, so therefore, we won't be a happy family."<P>Her words: "I still think we have a chance but right now is not the time. I don't know that you will be ready and willing when I am, but I can only hope. If you are not there 4 me when I am ready I will understand."<P>Translation: "The relationship with the OM is still new and exciting. Once the newness wears off and it becomes just like any other relationship, or when the OM screws up or betrays me, I'll most likely come running back to you. I hope you have a lot of patience!"<P>Her words: "You are right when you say that what I am doing, have done to you is wrong. And you are right when you say that I feel guilty. So why do I continue? Partly because I am selfish maybe and partly because I am still angry and want to punish you and partly because I'm not sure we can make it."<P><BR>Translation: "Yeah, you're right, I'm a selfish person, and I admit to it ... but by God, you pushed me into it. And besides, the relationship with the OM is still new and exciting," yada, yada, blah, blah ... <P>Her words: "Why not give you a chance to show me we can make it again? Because I am weak right now. Lastly I am not sure why I continue on this path. I look at it this way. Why do people do bad things if they know the things they are doing are bad? Maybe because it gives them some satisfaction but it also gives them disatisfaction knowing what they are doing is not right. Like smoking I guess. In any case, I'm not justifying my actions because I know they are wrong. I just want to apologize for hurting you and for my actions that hurt you and for not being a stronger and morally better person. I hope in time that I will be a better person and not continue to spiral down and down. I am also sorry I have not shown you how much I love you."<P>Translation: Once again, she's saying the same thing, "this relationship is so addictive and the sex is so good, I can't give it up, not for you or for our marriage or anyone or anything, and I will rationalize it as much as I like, and in fact, I'll even own up to my guilt."<P>My opinion? Took balls to write this letter. The whole message of it, to me, is, "Yes, I know what I'm doing is wrong and selfish. Guess what? I'm gonna keep doing it!" There is one part of this letter which I believe to be absolutely 100 percent true, and that is your W's statement:<P>"I know it would be better if I dissapear from your life and the boys life."<P>Yes. She is right. She should disappear until she gets her head on straight. Who could write such a letter and in good conscience, send it?<P>belld