Last night it went well with me, talking with him that he should take some responsiblity of why are relationship went left field and why he felt his needs weren't met and he made the wrong decision to have an A, he could have made another decision or way to solve this. We both know to be more honest and open, especially when we start feeling negelected. So that went well.<P>On you subject today:<P>Wow, You must be pretty confident in your relationship to start thinking of going out or joining something on your own. You must be feeling a bit more secure. I glad for you. We always should be an individual, with individual likes and interest, But...<P> I just got off with my Honey on the phone and I brought up the subject of this weekend and what we were going to do. He said that its time especially for me to get out with my friends, to be out on my own. He said he was going to his cousins house to just hang out on either Saturday or Sunday, watch some football, play some playstation etc... <P>I just got sad, quiet and insecure, is he really going over there or where? Should I trust him, let go of my leash on him?<P> When he told me this I said why are you pushing me to get out. He said cause I needed to, I need to time to be myself or just one of the girls, get some air,I use to before, it will be good for me, and he is not using it as an excuse to go on his own. <P>But he remember when we were first together, I go out meet my girlfriends, have lunch, shop, but now I don't do that anymore.<P>Maybe he is right, because when I am home by myself, (since my children are very sociable and out with their friends and will be with their father this weekend), I start to think too much, get upset,depressed, angry etc...<P>I going to try this, this weekend but I am terrified. I will ask him to keep himself available to me, so when I'm in doubt I can call him. Keep me informed where he is, at all times and I will do the same.<P>I am sooo scared. I guess I have to try to get to normal. I don't think I can afford to suffocate him, but I am sooo scared. I wonder is it too early? Will I be able to enjoy the day with my girlfriends? I am nervous. <P>Is this ok, that we do this so early in just finding out everything (three and a half weeks ago). I hope I don't loose my mind and try to enjoy my day. I'm already getting stomach pains, headache, its like I am having an anxiety attack.<P>Help...