My wife has been reading MB,and i did not know that.She also has been reading these forums i've been writing in.Now she's P.....off at me because she found out that i filed for divorce plus what i've been writing.She still yells at me and i'm getting soo sick and tired of it.I should be the one yelling at her,but i'm not.I tell her,if she can't stop yelling and start talking to me like a human being so we can see if our marriage is worth saving,then i will go ahead and sign the papers and have them served,because i can't take it any more.Deep down in my heart i know she don't really love me and that is why i think i get soo frustrated at times.If she could only show an ounce of love, then maybe theres a chance.She also gets mad when i try and talk to her about our relationship.I don't understand why.She also gets mad when i'm depressed,i tell her that she has had 5 years to deal with it and i've only had a couple of months ,and that she needs to at least understand that i to need time to deal with it.I'm at that breaking point where all i want to do is just get out.I just wish someone would talk to her.

JKaloudis<P>I am so sorry to hear that your situation isnt getting any better. But please keep posting here if you need too. Releasing your sadness and anger here will help. Maybe your wife can do the same. There are alot of WS on MB who tell their story and get the same support.<P>I fully understand your anger and depression that you feel towards your wife. Even to the point of looking towards divorce. However, if you feel that there is a chance that your heart is leaning towards maybe working things out with your wife please consider counselling together for a little while to see whether you are both able to recover from this.<P>Your wife seems angry with you as you said because you are close to filing for divorce. She may not want this. She probably feels so guilty and has so for many years that she herself doesnt know how to fix things, and instead places her anger, guilt and frustration on you.<P>Has your wife explained to you why she has now confessed after 5yrs from when the A occurred? Did you learn as to why she had the affair? <P>I know its extremely hard, believe me. Try to hang in there! Vent as much as you need too.<P>Take care of yourself<BR>TOS