I am a MW who was having an EMA for 2 years..This is my very first time to this site upon encouragement from another friend who also went from being an OW to this site. <P>One of the reasons I am writing here is to let everyone know how very dangerous the net is..I was always in Gloryb or TOW for the last year or so and got to know and e-mailed 4 or 5 women from there just talking about our situations..Well not thinking I let someone know my MM's (Xnow) last name and the state I lived in..She has some problems and I should have recognized this but I never thought what happened would happen..a week ago now she called my MM's wife (she knew his wife's name also..remember I thought she was a trustworthy friend) and told her everything she knew about the EMA..Quite a few details and alot of lies added in that were not true..I should have known better as she had some psych issues going on..but the point is we can trust no one with this personal information as many lives were destroyed because of the net and my being gullible to it all..Just can't imagine someone crazy enough to do this..<P>Sadly this was my downfall and I don't want others to make the same mistake..in the last week I feel like because of me trusting one crazy girl on the net 4 lives were destroyed and of course that is very hard for me to deal with my guilt..My XMM now is very angry I could give out that kind of information..she didn't have this cell..e-mail..but I was stupid enough to give her this and she wanted to save his wife supposedly from my distruction and called her..the problem with this is for one I truly loved this other person and our children are friends and we always said it would be the worst if anyone ever found out as were friends distantly with them also..<P>I would really appreciate if anyone has a similar situation as this is to just hard for me to believe someonce could actually do to another..I also want to know how you faced the other person you did so wrong to when you did have to see them finally? I have spent the last few days in bed and not eating and feeling terrible guilt..Started on an antidepressant..But how do I ever be forgiven by all concerned..My H, his wife, my XMM for trusting someone on the net..He loved me but you can bet he isn't happy at all right now with how I ruined all of our lives.....Please help..thanks..<p>[ October 21, 2001: Message edited by: annamaria ]

Annamaria,<BR> I am glad you have trusted us to talk to. I can not comment on what was done to you. <BR> I can say it has happened, what is your plan now?<BR>Do you want to reconcile with your Husband?<BR>If you do you have come to the right place.<BR>Good Luck

Well my M has been not so good for many years..but yes I do want to at least try with him as that is only right and I do love him..Just don't know if I can get the love back..need to grieve the other loss which was great..I did go get a few books for my H and myself to read..Were back sleeping in the same bed after a few years etc..<P>Mostly I just wanted to warn others and would really like to hear if this happened to someone else in my shoes per se and how they felt, feel now in time etc..Would appreciate any insight..thank you for your thoughts sadprincess..

AM,<P> All though the person from GloryB betrayed your trust, you might consider the fact that they could have actually helped you. Now you and all the others involved understand what you/they are dealing with and can start to try making some rational decisions on how best to move forward.<P><BR>Best of luck<BR>HI