Hi all.. I'm still trying to work on things. The Fiancee has been really good so far. Quite caring. He even went so far as to tell me when i hurt his feelings! (that is amazing - he never speaks his feelings) So, I was able to apologize for my mistake, and we could move on.<p>My problem is that I am now having nightmares. This whole situation scares me so much. We're going back to the therapist this weekend. Which will be nice. I just want to shake the nightmares. (the nightmare is of him cheating on me again) I know this is going to be a hard road to recovery, but I think I could do without the nightmares. <p>He did finally send the OW an email, and basically (not close to direct enough) told her to go away. I am not sure she will get the hint. (it's very vague) I hope she does. I really hope she just goes away. He has even allowed me access to his email account, in the interest of trust. (he checks his email very rarely, I will catch anything before him)<p>I never knew this would be so hard. I am such a trusting and caring person by nature that this is killing me. I am still nauseated over the whole thing. (although I'm eating again - just feel a little ill) To top it off, the OW emailed me, and told me to stop harassing HER? (yeah, ok - I'm not harassing her) she emailed him and was calling me a liar. (this is before his email to her) This is just bothering me so much. I know he doesn't want to talk about it yet. So, I'm not pushing him. I just need to vent this out somewhere.<p>thanks for listening.
wishful.