I had posted about the first few days I had found out that for sure there had been an affair for my husband. I found out about a week ago. I had one reply that was a good one and others from posts to others on how to deal with this. That advise was to read, read, read from these pages. That was very good advise. Right off had I can't remember who it was that had posted to me. But I really appreciate the post even if they all weren't directed to just me.
I was hurting so bad. I had had a good marriage and had thought that even tho it was not perfect and I knew I was lacking and I am not talking about sex (That is in any relationship married or affairs or whatever) I was longing for more attention and affection. I wanted my husband to do for me what I would see him do for other people. Then at one point I decided I was not going to get that and I turned to other thing like my children, tennis, my lady friends, and even food to satisfy my needs and again I am not talking about sex for me that was good.
I see now that I let my self down and my husband down as he did me to fully take care of each others needs.
First I want to thank you all for the support even tho it was not directed to me. Please remember as you post it goes beyond that one person. The post have helped me so much. But most of all Thank You to the Doctor and his advise and knowledge that he has learned over the years to help people in this most important part of their lives. To me our marriages are next to God. This is what has kept our country together. Marriage was made to keep us centered. God doesn't make things half way he creates perfectly.
I wish I could go on and on to express my feeling and I may come back later and add to this. I am so in Love with my mate that it is almost unbelievible. We are not kids we are in our 50's and married 37 years. This lask week we have both bared our hearts and souls. We have made love (more than sex) so many times from our deepest love for each other we can't even believe it. Boy have we wasted years. We have been on the best honeymoon ever right here at home. Better than the first one and that was good.
I regret the affair happened and most of all my husband regrets it. He is so regretful, he has broken many times with me in his arms over the pain he has caused to both himself and to me. I will leave you all that read this post what has helped me thru this. I am lucky in many factors mainly that my husband ended this 13 years ago. The first thing I did was asked Jesus to help me. He gave me a heart to forgive and a week for time with my husband alone. He opened our hearts to each other.
Second I had my husband to help me thru. He answered questions I had and I had many. I had to understand. I told him if I was going to get thur this I needed him to be my counsler and support.
Third I was sent to this website by Jesus to have you all to help me thru. See I had to much in my favor to be the winner. I had already won because my husband had chosen me to be with. One more reason for this website that has help me is being able to write. I don't want this know to anyone. I respect my Husband too much for that. So this was where I had to vent. Just writting the words was so helpful. I'll stop now. Thank you all so much and I pray your endings will be like mine. I hope to use what I have learned to advise my married children so they can have this too. How simple it was and we were not smart enough to see it. We had it all and missed it but not any more. I thank Jesus and you all.
God bless you.