My husband was involved with a co-worker about a year ago. He claims it was only a friendship, but I have a gut feeling it may have been more. He "claims" he has no contact with her anymore, but still works with her because it would be impossible for him to find the type of work he does in our area and financially we need his income. He swears that he wants me and only me. The problem is that I just cannot trust him. Something inside me just can't do it (I can't explain it). He has lied to me in the past about porn usage and other miscellaneous things. He is a very sneaky person and enjoys manipulating the truth to fit his needs.<p>The past year of my life has been hell having to always live in a state of constant wonder. We fight all the time. I've tried the counseling route, but did not find it useful or helpful. I guess I am just at the end of my rope and looking for advice and/or encouragement from others that really understand what I'm going through.

Hi, RS,<p>Welcome to MB. My first advice it to read everything on this website. Your H sounds like he had an EA -- emotional affair. I have a couple of questions -- did you know he was involved with this person? did he keep meetings and interactions with her secret from you? does he say he felt an emotional attachment to her -- a connection?<p>If the answers are yes, then it was an EA -- it does not have to be physical to be an affair. Even with an EA you will go throught the same feelings as any other type of A. Read everything on this site. I recommend the book by Dr. Harley -- Surviving An Affair.<p>Continue to post here and read other's posts, there is a lot of wisdom on this site and some wonderful, caring people.<p>Hange in there. You are strong enough to survive. <p>FHO