Hiya Rachel here, just needed to vent a bit. Can hardly see through these bloody tears. I am so sick of everything, I'm sick of my husband treating me like s**t and treating her as if she was the best thing since sliced bread. See, a movie just came out and i said to him that i've wanted to go see it, he said he didn't fancy it, a week later, right this minute actually, he's watching the same movie with her, the ex OW and now "just friends".

What is wrong with me, he won't touch me unless there is porn around. And when I ask him not to go on there he calls me a nazi and says that I drive him to it. He says that I don't have good conversation (I am 20) and he like talking to her because she likes the same things as she does, politics and so on. And I should stop watching cartoons. He says that he doesn't have a life with me here, I am waiting for immigration things to be sorted out, untill then I can't work or go to school, I have no friends and no one to talk to and he's the one without a life!! I just want to be the most important person in his life and right now he's doing things with her that he should be doing with me. But there is no talking to him, when I cry he gets angry and when I try and make things better he sulks. I am thinking about going home, but I desperately want to make this work, am just so angry and hurt. God, just don't want to feel useless and stupid anymore.

I'm sorry if this posting has no real subject, I just needed to vent a bit. The computer is the only form of communication I have with other people!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

GWR,
Dont have too much time to post tonight, but just wanted to give you some encouragement. Hang in there, stay strong... His problems are his own, and his to fix. Dont take his words to heart, he isnt thinking clearly. You are loved by those who truely know you, even if they don't show it at this time. Trust me.

Keep your chin up, live for yourself. Do something fun for yourself tonight or tommorow, ok? what makes you happy (other than something that involves him) I want you to think about it.

God does not make junk.

Hugs and God bless,

Me

Hi Girl With Rage!
Welcome! All of the Members on these boards will hang on to ya and make you feel better! I promise! Everyone of us have been through simular relationships and it is the hardest thing to go through! I myself have been side slapped and never saw it coming now for 5 months and maybe a year as I just do not know when the A started. You do have to take care of you. Read all you can on here and ignore the comments. I need to do that more and am guilty as I get my gander up! Not good! Better not to say anything and sooner or later he will come around. I pray mine does. If not then we do go on. I would not go out with other M though just your friends and maybe movies? You are very young, but A do not have age attached to them. Hon we all hurt bad and our heads feel like they are going to blow up everyday and we cry all the time and our minds just won't work. As the days go on you will to so please hang tight and pray to God alot. We have a prayer section on here that is good. I will pray for you too. That is the only thing that gets me through bad days. I hope this note was some comfort to you.