Thanks for all your posts! Won't know about results until maybe the end of this week, but hopefully sooner. Unfortunately, I don't have a PC at home which is why I can't reply as often...i am just such a mess right now. yesterday i just sat in bed and cried while my daughter played outside with a friend. i just didnt want to get up. my emotions for H are all over the place; i have all the "images" one of you mentioned, but then the next minute i miss him and wish he were home. i even asked if i could go to a family wedding this coming weekend that i had previously said i didnt want to go to - i'm very close to his family and wanted to go for them, not for him. well, lets be honest, it's for him, too - probably that sick part of me that wants to go so at least i know he's with me, not someone else. did i do the wrong thing by saying i wanted to go?
Also, my new obsession is those "spy" deals you can install on a PC and view their activity online - have any of you ever used that? Yes, I know it's torturing myself but I need to SEE what he's doing (or not doing) with my own two eyes.
Sorry, I'm all over the map today, but thanks again for listening.