Desiree,<P>A .22? My kid has a BB gun that would probably leave a bigger mark. What are you thinking. I didn't know they still made .22's<P>Get with the now. A 45 chrome plated mother with pearl handles ,laser sight and engraved with your knickname in script. Don't forget the hollow points.<P>My cousin, yes the Pagan motorcycle guy who would kill Brian for me only asking for a case of beer in payment, told me that a 9mm slows 'em down, goes right through. But, a 45 drops 'em. I'm sure he probably read that in a magazine.<P>Sorry, Bill once again I went off on a tangent.<P><P>------------------<BR>"It's not over till we say it's over! Was it over when the Germans bombed Pearl Harbor? H*ll no!" Blutto...Animal House 1984<P>Wishing us all the Best.<P>Medic<P>

Hi, Bill. Just got to this somehow. But now I guess you're feeling better.<P>It helps to vent and let it out sometimes huh? And now that Medic's got the weapon of choice covered and RMA's volunteered to confuse him practicing then I figure you got it covered.<P>You plan A IS working, Bill. It just never works as fast as we need it to. Just hang in there, ok? Some of it IS registering, even in her sick little brain right now.<P>Lori

Bill,<P>Today I felt the same way... sort of when I almost ran into OP.<P>Hang in there, buddy. Everything will turn out to be OK- Who signs with Jagger's lyrics of "You don't always get what you want but if you wait a while you'll get what you need"? I feel the same way + think that all this s**t is already turning us (at least is turning you) in better human beings.<P>Take care. See ya.<P>Alex<P>------------------<BR>Live and learn

WilliamJ<P>I've tried to post this 3 times now, but here I go again.<P>I think you are doing great!! I know it is frustratuing and that you get excited & anxious but as hard as I know it is, it takes patience. Its the hardest thing in the world to do but we must.<P>Things seem to be turning around for you but it does not happen as quickly as we would like. It is my experience that in a situation like this... that when the two spouses start getting along and having more and more pleasant encounters, that the OP becomes very insecure. They begin to demonstrate some of the same behavior that we as the betrayed spouses did in the beginning. It is important to make ourselves a safe place for our WS's to run to when this happens.<P>I am going to be honest with you... this is not over yet, even when {and I do say when, I'm going to be positive} Robin comes home, there is the stage of withdrawl. For me. that was worse than the affair in some ways, but we have to stay strong, we have no choice. <P>I don't know if you are a believing man or not, but the thing that helped me the most is prayer. I'd pray for...<P>1. Strength<BR>2. Peace of mind<BR>3. And I think you mentioned it up above somewhere but you bet I prayed for God to make things difficult for them.<BR>4. I prayed for God to speak to his heart and shield us both from the anger & influence that Satan would inflict on both of us.<BR>5. Then I prayed that my H would listen to his heart and hear His instructions.<P>You'd be surprised or maybe you wouldn't but after recovering awhile with my H, I found out just how many of my prayers went answered, each and every one!!<P>This was not in God's plan, he does not condone this, but he will discipline us with the loving touch, that only the Father has, but in his own time.<P>Rambling again.... but the one lesson that took me the longest to learn is...<P>that God doesn't need my help; and the more I tried to help myself speed up this process, the harder I made it for God to work his magic. Once I finally learned to let go and let God do it for me, that's really when things began to happen.<P>That is what you have been doing, don't try to take it back from God's hands now, if you do, chances are you'll have to start all over again.<P>Vent here, but stay on course, you really are doing great!!!! <P>{{{{{{{{{Big Hugs of Strength}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Genie<P>

NT, Maybe on the shame and embarsment. He can't lagaly buy cigarettes. I like Red-Neck-Inbred-Scum-Trash" that ealy fits.<P>Medic, My .45 is crome plated with pearl handles. Your cousin is right about knockdown power, the .45 was invented because duribg the Span-Am war the .38 wasn't powerful enough to stop the Phillipenos that were hopped up on dope and wrapped in bamboo.<P>Lori, Nothing is ever fast enough with this sickness, is it? God is giving me the gift of patience.<P>Alex, A friend of mine told me on discovery night that I wouln't believe the number of "gifts" I would recieve from this. He was right .<P>Genie, I'm going to add your prayers to my list. God has already answered many of mine. Surrendering this to His care is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I asked God to forgive me for trying to do his job for Him. He's talking to her but she isn't listening yet. Thanks for keeping me headed for the goal, "Coach".<P>Bill<BR><P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

She is probally listening more than you think & even more than she wants to admit.<P>Genie

Genie,<P>I can only hope. He,a yelling at her thats for sure. Last sundays sermon was a real toe crusher for her. If you'd like to you can here it at <A HREF="http://www.hgbc.org" TARGET=_blank>www.hgbc.org</A> <P>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>