Wow,
It feels as though it has been eon's. I haven't got my computer fixed to log in. I am logged in on a friends computer. Things, while I thought were getting better alas are not. He is still planning on leaving me. I have been really busy with an aunt who was diagnosed with gliblastoma, a very fatal brain cancer. I feel like I have failed miserably. We have been getting along wonderfully. Spending tons of time together, you name it. I don't know what his plans are. I woke up today very blue and decided to ask him where we were. He still doesn't want to be with me. He has agreed to one session with Steve but I think he is just agreeing with that for me, not for "us". I am getting ready to move out. I know I tried very hard but I still fell like a colossal failure. Like maybe if I was prettier or smarter or made better choices he would still want to be with me. I hope everyone is doing well, I think about you guys all the time.
Take care,
Layli