Boy what you just told forbetterorforworse
really hit home for me.
It brought tears to my eyes, because deep down inside, I know my H is not remorseful what a wake up call.
If you can read what, I wrote to Brokenhearted in forum General Question her post is My H Aunt died ....wake is today need to vent.
My H is toying with me. I allow it My self esteem is gone, I can admitt to that. I'm good at saying what needs to be said on these forums, but I feel I don't have a voice with him.
I find it hard to verbalize my feelings. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with him. I have this quezzy feeling in my stomach this needs to stop.
I feel my love bank is drained, please read my reply to her. I was venting I didn't mean to hijack her post.
I post, but I don't get a lot of replies. I quess because my marriage was short lived so I guess people feel that I just need to divorce and get it over with.
What you said hit home, it brough tears to my eyes.I've been disrespected to the core and still is getting disrespected.
H and I are separated his A is over with OW that resulted in OC that crushed me. I have a problem with some OW on these boards. They seem to have no remorse. They say they do but when BS started talking about there feelings about OC you should see the arrogance in the post go over to P/C .
Read Catnip post LET STOP [censored] FOOTING AROUND BRING IT ON you will see.
I don't even feel confortable there venting. I'm tempted to find some where else to go.
because of the embarressment and humiliatiion I feel.
If you read this thank you so kindly if you don't I understand. H tells me he's not ready for a relationship, right now he needs to get his self together. I believe there could be someone else but his not telling me.
The reason I say this, is because of the attitude I get from his brother girlfriend and his brother mom that tells me something is going on.
I believe H is telling them something H doesn't act nasty with me he's very cordial but if I anger him in anyway I may call back to apaologize H won't talk to me.
