Thank you so much for replies to my post. This is not something I would have ever seen myself doing, but then again, I never thought that I would be in this position right now either. It is wonderful to know that there are people who really understand what I am going through and care enough to respond. I know this happens to many people (male or female), but somehow you feel so alone when it happens to you and you do not even stop to think about how many others have and are going thru the same emotional crisis. Special thanx to Spring3. I am sorry for your pain as well. Even if I do not decide to stay with my husband, I will absolutely seek counseling for myself in order to heal emotionally. I need to forgive him whether I stay or go, because I do not want to live with this anger and resentment built up in me forever. It would be very difficult for me to be able to trust anyone else again. I will absolutely continue to read this site and gather as much info as possible. I think I have a long road ahead of me and it is pretty scary. Thanx again!!

eternally grateful for kind responses!!
dhr