posted this earlier and can really use some input. Thanks
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I need some help. The last few days have been pretty good and we seem to be connecting in lots of ways and talking about the future. That's all great but last night in bed my husband rolled over and put his arms around me and was snuggling and it was all I could do not to jump out of my skin. I kept it together, going with plan a and hugged and snuggled back, but after some of the things he has told me in the last week and a half I just had a sick feeling in my stomach. I admit to being happy that he seems to be trying but what goes thru my head is not pretty.Am I crazy, because this is what I thought I wanted. Any thoughts on getting past this wall I seem to be erecting? I want to remain open and loving and caring but I also feel a need to protect myself.
Used

Used - I can't say this from personal experience, but from what I've read here of others in this same setting, you're pretty dern normal.

used and abused,
Boy you sound just like me. I found out 2xs about my husbands affair. He admitted it once (said it only happened one time) and a few months later the OW called and told me this had been going on for 3 years! Talk about a jolt to your system!!

In any case, t feel that you are wanted and loved physically is great, but I know how you feel when that feeling of disgust comes in. It is starting to fade with me and it should with you with time. I used to have visions of the 2 of them together. That drove me over the edge. Time lessened those thoughts though they creep up every now and then.

I have learned that because I want things to happen quickly, it doesn't always work that way. Time is the best band-aid. Some seem to heal quicker than others. Good luck to you and hang in there!!