Hi everyone.
Update on story is that for the last week I have began to feel "better". I have decided that I will no longer be "pulled down" by this nightmare. Guess what..... it is working.
Worrying about what is or might happen is not good. All it does is give me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach..... Since I have stopped this I feel stronger and calmer. It is not the first thing that comes to mind every morning anymore. Could this be healing?
H and I talked the other night about our "nightmare" and he has told me that he is much more content with his life and that he is beginning to feel the same way. I have even heard him whistling which he has not done for months. I told h that if we are going to get through this we both have to give it 101%. He agrees.
I still feel there is a huge amount of work to be down. The old "sick feeling" does creep up on you when you least expect it but with all my might I push it away. I know that I am not out of the woods yet but I have to give it all my efforts. I still doubt his movements but I will not let this feeling take control again (well I hope not anyway LOL)..... I still have the "meeting" coming up so I will have a very hard hill to climb still but I will keep everyone informed.
I just want everyone to know that it does feel better just now ayway. Hang on in there everyone who has felt like me over the past months. Be positive.
Love
Kat
P.S. Where are you Wifey, you stood me up over coffee........Hope everything is okay. Did you get my e.mail? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
