The A happended 2 years ago(lasted 3 mos), He told me 1 year ago(I questioned him from the time it was going on-cuz I just knew!!), and NOW I find myself just as agry...maybe it is because I was always trying to be a good wife and homeschooling mother of 4...and he said I never did anything right!, or maybe it's because he does not seem repentant-he has a "get over it!" attitude, and I know that it sounds childish, but I had something special with him being my only love, and I loved him with all his selfishness, and then he thinks he deserves better so finds the first skanky woman(a hotel maid) that makes him feel special by telling him how great he is and she would appreciate him...she just listens-he is a monster to live with and now I find he is a cheater, liar, and infidel-we met NOTHING to him when the chips were down so was he with her.
I am still totally CRUSHED!!!!! I LOVED HIM SOOO MUCH, and he is dead, cuz the guy I look at is not the man I married, and NOTHING will change his choice to throw me awayt(even though he said he never loved this girl, he said she was just so ez and he liked that but NEVER had any plans to ever leave me) WELL I think that is not his choice NOW!! I hate what he has done to me and how our family is no longer...I guess this is just my out. We have gone to counseling for about 9 months, and I am in a law suit with the OW's husband cuz he is trying to get $$$ from my husband too, since this skanky wife could not, he is suing me for forcing my husband to fire him...Like he cares...he set his wife up for a date with my husband, and states since my husband visited them and ate supper with them(she invited him) he should "at least" take her out to eat...so they did and she already had the kissing him every time she saw him, I did not know any of this...I LIVE A KIND OF HELL EVERY DAY!!!!!!
I wish I could take my children and never see him, it is all just too painful and nothing can change it...it is insanity...HELP!!
