Friday I come home from work, to find that my fiance packed all his stuff into his car, and has arranged to take another apartment. (He had threatened to do this two weeks ago, but changed his mind.)
He says an OW is not involved, and I do believe him. He is unhappy with LIFE. Unhappy that he is not living in the same state as his family...unhappy that I "nag" him (I ask if he paid his bills, if he called his family, if he would like to go out for dinner...really bad stuff eh!!)...unhappy with the people he works with...unhappy that he has to work so much overtime,
and that I complain when overtime takes him away from me...unhappy with going back to school...unhappy with health (dental) problems. He's got it all. And he says he will be in contact (so far I don't know where he is, only the town) and that we will see each other. Do I even want to????? I cried so much the first time he threatened to leave...this time, when he actually did it, I find myself more angry. Sad and angry. I tried so much to help him, and feel worthless now. He says he has had one visit to a social worker (didn't tell me) and will be seeing a therapist. If he actually does it, it will be a good thing. My mother thinks he is going through an early mid-life crisis. Maybe!
This is rambling, sorry...just venting here. Says he will contact me today, and I don't know how I will react...loving or angry. Or even if he will call. My stomach is sick...he has all the control over this...I have no idea what is coming next, or when it's coming. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />
