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Moving on ... all things come to past!!! <small>[ July 09, 2003, 10:19 PM: Message edited by: ferncliff ]</small>
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Welcome, fernclif. Sorry you're here, but this is a special place where you can learn to fix your marriage problems.
So much of your description is right from the affair text book. Take some comfort in that. You're normal. And he's playing the typical WS role. This means all the info you'll read here applies to you both.
My first specific advice to you is to forget about trying to figure out what this other woman wants or why she wants it. She is not worth your energy. Your problem is your husband and you should be trying to determine why he so easily took the bait. In other words, what did she provide that he wasn't getting from you? This does not mean that you caused the affair, just that affairs usually occur because of unmet needs.
Think back a few years:
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by ferncliff: <strong>One time 20 years ago the thought crossed my mind to have an affair myself. He always stayed so wrapped up in his work .. was gone out of town a good bit and really never really showed me the type of affection that he does now.</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Using your own experience, your admitted temptation was generated by unmet needs - your need for companionship and affection. If your H's needs were being met, her bait would not have worked. Again, you did not hold a gun to his head and force him to betray you. His decision to taste the bait was entirely his. Afterall, you didn't take the bait 20 years ago, right? You were in the same marriage, right? His decision was 100% his.
But this defines what you need to do: figure out what needs weren't being met. I'll bet some of yours weren't being met by him either, right?
Browse around here and read everything you can about Plan A. This is your homework assignment. Read, read, read.
Please consider consulting your doctor about depression. This is VERY common among BSs and you describe the symptoms. You cannot become an improved fernclif if you're depressed. Antidepressant meds may help.
Do not bother trying to figure out what motivated your H to "do this." Just accept that it was due to unmet needs and his selfishness. Besides, fixing the unmet needs is the only thing within your power to do - other than starting divorce, which I don't believe either of you want.
It's unfortunate that they work together. Ideally, a solution would include some change in the working environment that would foster no contact. But given the likely opportunistic behavior of OW, she may simply move on to an easier target if your H can take a stand. But bottom line, he will HAVE to clearly end this with her. Period. Your marriage cannot improve with her in the picture.
Another part of your homework assignment is to purchase and read two books: Surviving An Affair and His Needs/Her Needs. Both are by Willard Harley and available from the bookstore section of this site. As you read, post questions that apply to your specific situation. But I'll predict you'll see yourself in these books and most of your questions will be answer without asking here.
Please consider getting into counseling. Seek out a counselor that is versed in fixing marriages - not just preparing for whatever their clients think they want.
Your situation is FAR from terminal. As you read here, most situations are far worse. Good luck.
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Dear Ferncliff,
I'm so sorry for your pain! Our D-day is just 3 months ago, but I've been through this one other time so I kind of know the ropes. I know that you are hurting so deeply right now.
Temptation comes at any age. How flattered he must have been that a younger woman was after him. Everyone has a certain weakness and she found his. It sure isn't fair to you.
If he had desires that needed to be fulfilled then he should have shared them with you...not tried to meet them outside of the marriage...especially after all of the years that you've been together. I'm sure that he's very disappointed in himself and remorseful for the pain that he's causing you.
If you can find it in your heart to forgive him, you can still make your marriage work and maybe be even better than it was. You deserve to be with him in this time of your life. You've worked just as hard as he has to stay married for so many years. You've been there for each other, your children and grandchildren. To give it up now would be so hard.
He evidently has some needs in his life that he possibly didn't even know about himself. It may seem unfair of him to ask you to meet needs that he allowed another woman to reawakened in him. Hopefully, once you can get past the hurt, you will find some joy in reawakening your love with him. You two could have some wonderful years of loving each other ahead of you. The kids are gone, the house is paid for (maybe)...have some fun together in this special time of your lives.
Go through the Harley's books and follow their good advice. Talk to some close friends about what you are going through. Get in to see a marriage counselor if you can. It's not fair of your husband to just dismiss the affair. It may seem easier that way for him, but it's not for either of you in reality. If he wants you to be able to move past it then he's got to do the work in the marriage. He had the energy for the affair, right?
I would bet that his attentions toward you are pure. He's been by your side for years and he wants to regain your trust and reside there again. He did a terribe thing, but he's still the man you fell in love with all of those years ago.
It's hard to watch your spouse go through something like that. You know something isn't right, but in your wildest dreams you wouldn't have believed it was another woman making him act like a teenager. He was foolish and he feels like a fool when he talks about it. That's okay, he needs to feel that way and you need to feel your pain and anger too. Tell him how hurt and disappointed you are. Grieve the loss of a the marriage you thought that you had...one with no betrayals.
I'll be thinking of you. I know that this website will give you strength.
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Moving on ... all things come to past!! <small>[ July 09, 2003, 10:22 PM: Message edited by: southofdixie321 ]</small>
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