I found out about the A of my WS in August 2002. I had lost my good career job in July 2002. I still don't have a new job.. But I'm really REALLY tired of Plan A. I can't leave.. I don'thave a job to support me and my boys. But I'm tired of the dance. I 99% sure the PA's(in other states) are a thing of the past, but I'm also 99% sure there's a EA close to home. His moods are from so friendly, to down right jerk. But I can't leave. I have no job. He just lies to me if I ask what in the heck is going on. But his Sunday workout's are from 1.5 hours, to 5 hours long. Give me a break. Still hiding his cell phone- and erasing all call logs every time it's used. It's a work phone so I don't see the bill. He logs onto the computer for just minutes(5 or 6?) every night after I go to bed. I think checking for his secret IM account. I don't have password. I'm tired of the dance.
The question is - is it possible to do plan B while still living here? I feel like I've been put over a barrell and *******. "Oh hon, just quit your job and I'll take care of you". Yeah.. right.. Just quit my job and I have no where to turn! (I was offered a job 45 miles away when merger happened and together we decided to take the 14 month severence pay, and stay home with kids for a few years).
I want to just hand him my wedding ring- and say I never want to see it again unless you are 100% committed to this marriage, and truly remorseful. Otherwise- sale it to a pawn shop. The only good a ring on your finger did is make the other wayward married women want you more! Because he was "safe".. Make me puke.
Well, overall just venting - I'm so tired of the dance....
