Hi Bonnie- keep reading here. Its all about choice- you do get to choose from here on out. You can make new memories and create new dreams together. or not! You have alot to go thru yet-so many choices were taken away from you- we can all relate to shattered lives but you can read all over at MB about surviving! Try to relax-the hardest part but necessary. patience-you'll need more than you thought possible but you can find it. forgiveness- everyday- for yourself and your H. choose your battles carefully- but do set boundaries- no contact is essential and I can see will be hard to get-answers to your questions are essential-but be careful what you ask for! Many details are just painful-but some are necessary. Remorse-out of the fog empathy-takes a WS AWHILE to show that-this is a humbling experience for everyone. If you have someone live to talk to that is very good-talking helps-choose carefully who you confide in. Time- this process takes alot of time......and more patience...walk away when you can't stand it- read-write- you will find a place to gather yourself and chances are better than not that tomorrow will come and give you 24 more hours to have a better day. prayer is ever powerful-for peace and direction.
a primer to get you started:
http://www.findarticles.com/cf_0/m1...e.jhtml?term=infidelity+psychology+todayand what I read EVERYDAY:
Desiderada
"Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant;
They too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
It is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
Many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the council of the years,
Gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a healthy discipline,
Be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here,
and whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God,
Whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy."
Written by: Max Erhmann