Your last statement is exactly how I feel. I just want to be HAPPY again!!! I don't WANT to be a doormat for him.

I told him tonight that I want to put new locks on the door. He says that's fine with him since he has no intentions of ever leaving me alone to go drink again. What do you think?? Should I do it??

Hello What is the name of the bood SAA I would like to get it. I know wht you mean about just wanting to be happy again. I am tired of all the arguing even with the kids it is hell around here and I need help soon!!!!!!!!!

Hello All boy what a long week-end. I had to work all week-end but that is ok it keeps my mind where it needs to be. On sat. it was the six months anniversary since D-day it was a hard day for me I work the early shift and my H had a late shift that day so we did not really have any time together that was ok I wasn't up to much, thinking to much.

My H had wrote me a letter back in dec. telling me his feeling about everything he wrote it the day after I cought him online with OW. any way I have carried that letter around all this time pulling it out and reading it every now and then and becoming upset over and over every time I read it. After reading SAA the letter had new meaning to me and I made a big move I read it one last time and saw it for what it really was, exuces for why he had the A and hope of me oking him staying in contact with her(that was not going to happen)I wrote my H a long letter telling him just how I felt about life today I asked him to please read the letter he gave me back then and then he could throw it away if he chose. I believe the things he wrote then were feeling he was dealing with, but if he were to write the same letter today I don't think he would say the things he said then.

He never said anything to me about the letter and today I could stand it no longer so I asked him if he had read them,he said yes and then threw them away outside in the dumpster he said he wants to forget about all of that and start fresh a whole new beginning. I sure hope this last so many times he says he will do something but after a short time he stops. Only time will tell.

I have hurt my shoulder and I'm in alot of pain I went to the docotor I thought it was dislocated but he said no.Anyway this is not what I needed right now but oh well such is life he wanted me to take some time off work but I can't afford it right now so I will work through the pain if I can.And that is about all that is new in my life this week talk to you all again soon. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

does soundf like a long weekend. Glad you got rid of the letter hopefully things will move forward now. Also what is the name of the book?SAA I don't know what it stands for. Thanks talk soon

does soundf like a long weekend. Glad you got rid of the letter hopefully things will move forward now. Also what is the name of the book?SAA I don't know what it stands for. Thanks talk soon :

Hi vomit.

SAA is "Surviving An Affair". You can order it at MarriageBuilders or from Amazon.com.

Ginger...
I'm glad you're still going strong (except from the shoulder). You seem quite optimistic - Good! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Thanks all for your replies it really brightens up my day when I log on and see that someone has stopped by to chat on my thread.

I am trying to stay optomistic but ever since I told my H that I would not bring up his A anymore(this has been really hard)he seems to be slipping back into his old habbits of being so busy that he forgets me. I don't want to sound like a cry baby but after all one of the things that got us into this mess was his lack of time for me and the kids one can only take so much of feeling alone all the time. I get tired of feeling like if there is an extra 10min. at the end of the day he will squeeze me in.

He brought me home a new braclet today one that I have been wanting I know you all are going to say wow how lucky I am,but let me give you a little insight on my H,he thinks if he buys me things that makes up for not spending time with me or not talking to me. I told him thankyou so much for the braclet I love it but it really is not gifts that I want, I want time and affection(he thinks sex is affection am I the only woman who feels there are other forms of affection that are important to us)so you see he feels like if he brings me a gift and we have sex than all is well and he has done his part of taking care of my needs.If this is so why do I feel so empty and lonley?

I do not mean to sound like I am complaining I am not I just get tired of him not getting it he can be such a blockhead.He has promised to read SAA but no signs of that happening yet. Well I am going to go my arm is really starting to hurt with the typing I will be glad when I find out what is really wrong with it I ended up missing two days of work so far and that is really going to hurt come payday because I don't have any PTO time yet because I just took this full time postition in March so no benifits for 90 days

I had to come and give myself a BUMP!!!!!!
I was getting lost <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

hi gingersnap, well more bad news today, therapist says she wants to do 2-4 more weeks of therapy before I can return to work ,Ive been out since dec., cant wait to get back to work, might help take my mind off things. All seems ok, but it did before I found out, Im trying hard,my mind tells me to leave her, but my heart says to stay,Im giving it a try, but if I find out about any more lies or men thats it, i'm out of here. Hope alls going well with you ,you havent posted since june 17th will keep you in my prayers billibob

Hi Ginger,

How are you? I'm worried about you.

This is the thread I thought I let die,but my good friend billibob reserected it LOL.

I am fine,and billibob if you read this how are you doing it sounds like something is going on start a thread so we can chat and get me caught up on whats happening with your W. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />