I have been trying to keep my marriage together for the past three years. I had an affair, okay I am at fault and I know I have to pay. I was attracted to someone and I made a big mistake , another woman had approached my husband and told him. It didn't last long by that time I had ended the affair. For the past three years I get verbal abuse everyday I feel like there is a tape recorder in my head and I hear the same story over and over. I am very depressed and I have done everything possible to hold my marriage together. At the beginning it was worse I can say it's a little bit better than it was. My husband has been going out every weekend
and coming home drunk and has met several other women. There is one that is in his life for the past two years I feel things have gotten close with them in the past three months at the beginning I know it was a friendship. But then again how stupid can I be. He tells me things are never going to be the same and then I get affection from him and he wants to sleep with me and their, for the times that I agree, due to the fact that I am desperate and holding on to hope, he shows me so much emotions. I don't know what to do I have found out alot about the other woman, she is flat broke and she is looking for a sugar daddy. My husband also has his health problems and I feel something is going to happen to him and then I will feel to blame.
He constantly denies the other woman but I picked up telephone messages and had them followed so I know. She also had the nerve to call me and swear to me that nothing is going on.
She had called twice. I called her recently and cursed her out because he causes problems in the household. I have 3 girls ages 18, 14, 9. She recently called and left me a message denying anything is going on and threatening me. What did he have to say? well nothing he always tries to bring up what I did, so that he can shut me up. But also the excuse on what he is doing is my fault, he says I PUSHED HIM THERE. After that message she left me the other day I caught him talking to her in our office over the phone and explaining to her my reaction to her message and the fight we had and how he verbally abused me and that I was crying. I was shocked. I don't know what to do anymore I am so depressed and so weak. HELP

C5 I remember from your last post that you are one busy lady running a business and working at another job as well. You don't seem to have much time (if any) for your H(husband) and the OW(other woman) is probably filling the EN(emotional need) of recreational companionship for your H. I asked you in your previous thread if you had though about getting someone you trust (like your 18 year old daughter) to help you out with the business, so that you can go out on dates with your H during the weekends. Have you given any thought on this?