today is H's birthday, and his daughter is here for 10 days, so it is easy for me to be pleasant to H, in front of her. he actually told me on the car speaker phone, with her there, that im being nice, and its nice, and what's different (imo, she should not have to know thing one about us, but he's a talker...). anyway, ive not really been different, ive just withdrawn from conflict while she's here. but now, he calls me constantly and tells me he misses me and tells me how sweet i am, and that he never told me enough (how could he, he only had eyes for OW for 2 years...)<BR>i want to tell him that all the fighting i did was not out of anger, i was just crying out in pain. or do you think he already knows?...<BR>well, i digress.<BR>the point is, just a small change in dynamics can have a large impact. <BR>he told me he wants us to sit down and have a long chat about where we're headed (he's buying a HUGE house on acreage with his stock options, and i have not even seen the place, and don't really want my name on it till i know it's for sure), and i told him im afraid to talk to him, because last time we talked, the truth about his living with OW came out, and he assured me, no, he has no bombs to drop this time.<BR>well, it seems like a lot of the pain is beginning to fade, and i honestly thought i would be in agony forever. phew.<BR>anyway, he's out tonight...office party with daughter, whom he might have hired at his office, and she might move in with us (im 27, she's 25. funn-ny. btw, i NEVER would have got involved with him if i knew the truth about his past...he is SUCH a good storyteller. i thought he had no kids and only one wife, really he had 3 and 3. sigh)<BR>so, if she moves in with us, i wonder how that would affect our marriage? interesting.<BR>well, just wanted to give y'all a short update.<BR>have a good weekend, everyone.<P>julie<P><P>------------------<BR> <A HREF="http://www.alladvantage.com<BR>ID#" TARGET=_blank>www.alladvantage.com<BR>ID#</A> atp-113<P>
