It's been a long while since I posted here again. Just been reading. <P>Wanted you all to know that after all the praying I have done for God to change my exs heart so he will want to be married to me again has been a waste of my breath. This is how it appears anyhow. My ex has been telling me up until 2 weeks ago that he has not dated or slept with anyone else, so I thought my praying was having some impact. He also told me that my praying probably did have something to do with that. Then low and behold, I called him and there was that change of tone in his voice. He was talking different to me. I know him so well. So I asked if he was seeing anyone now, and he admitted it and said was not my business though. So this really sucks!!!! I can never take him back even if he wants me now. He has been hanging in bars looking for company, and didnt like going to them while we was together. When I used to mention us going out to one, he said if that is the sort of thing I wanted to do then I should have stayed with my ex boyfriend who liked to go to such places. Now look at him. Go figure.<P>Anyway, I did tell him to not think that in a couple years or whatever, that he can just pop back into my life and swoop me off my feet because it will be too late. Me telling him over and over how much I love him, and by me still not going out on a date, he says feeds his ego. This mans head is tooooo big. He feels he can have me back anytime he wants, no matter what he does. Says it will always be me and him. Guess he wants to go wild for awhile and live like he is 20 again because he is feeling old. He is 38. I am 33 and he always tells me I act old, guess because now I dont want the bar scene. He also made sure I knew this woman is younger too. I hate this. Am I that dang old?<P>I hope he gets more gray hairs in his ears and nose, so much that he has too much trouble plucking them out. HE HE HE HE Oh yeah, and I hope his caps fall off his front teeth, so that he has large spaces in between them again. HA HA HA HA, I will quit now before I start to get too bad.
