I'm new here and I dont even know where to start before I feel like breaking down. I been married for 3 yrs and during those 3 years, I had 2 children for my huband. Everything was a little off in the beginnning because my husband's
ex had a big problem about his marrying. After we were married, he would do little things like, he went to EX-GF house to retrieve his hair brush and often placed himself in areas that only them 2 were familiar with. I am not from this town but I moved here to be with my mother and I met my husband. I don't have any friends and I don't anybody here, like he does, so to an extent that gives him the upper hand.
Christmas, anniverseries, and birthdays, were like a nothing event, he did nothing special for me and we argued alot, because I felt like he would have never done something like this with the EX-girlfiend, but he claims he did. I guess thats why she cheated on him.
I let him roam freely, thinking he was faithful and I wanted him to feel free to be himself, so he wouldn't feel locked in the marriage, like his friends thought he would be. Then he lied to me about talking to the Ex-gf at work and thats when I felt like he betrayed me. Why was the phone call a secret? He says he doesn't know, his answer to evru question is I don't know.
During my 2nd pregnancy, he was ignoring me and his sexual appetite had decreased, we no longer went anywhere in public and still don't today. During arguements he started hitting me real hard and even threw me into the tub. I knew something was real wrong, but he always says its my fault or that I cause him to do these things and that I was crazy. I confronted him about being unfaithful and he denies it all the time. I would get hang up on the phone and often disrespected on the cellphone he uses for business. He runs his own business where he drives around to sell his music cds. He never tells me anything about what goes on out there other than how silly one or two customers are.
Suddenly this year he decides to buy all these expensive gifts one after the other, so I am wondering, why he didn't think this way on Christmas, my birthday, etc. He has gotten a little better than when we first started but last night I asked him as I have asked of him before, to provide me the cellphone statements from the entire time he has had the cellphone,and he flew into a rage. He gave me an ultimatum saying that he would order them and that when they came, he was going to be gone. I told him that I only wanted to get to the truth and that I wanted him to prove me wrong and he said I was crazy. Now I have been in the house for over a year, never to be seen with my husband and he showed no support or love for me when I was pregnant and I feel worthless. He always tell me that I should go out there and investigate like a real woman instead of asking him. Is it wrong to want to know the truth and am I just paranoid.?
