I was sitting here, listening to some music....I have not done that in such a long time, got the old Jim Croce out....Sheryl...I thought you might appreciate that..lol...anyhoo, I was listening to this band, Collective Soul, and I found this song...<P>I just started bawling my eyes out and have NOT been able to stop....I have to post the lyrics because you both may be the only two who know what I mean.......if you know what I mean.....now I'm confused...lol...bad day...watching neighbors who won $5 million in lottery moving out today...<P><BR>SHE GATHERS RAIN<P>Today she dresses<BR>for the change she's facing now<BR>and the storm that's raging<BR>a safe haven she has found<BR>she doesn't care what the prophets say anymore<P>For the love she had<BR>she has no more<P>So she gathers rain<BR>she gathers rain<BR>to rinse away all her guilt and pain<BR>she gathers rain<BR>she gathers rain<BR>to wash and cleanse and make her whole again<P>Her imagination<BR>has started stretching wide<BR>and her new conviction<BR>no longer will she hide<BR>she's not branded<BR>when prophets speak words of fire<P>The same love she gives<BR>she requires<P>so she gathers rain<BR>she gathers rain<BR>to rinse away all her guilt and pain<BR>she gathers rain<BR>she gathers rain<BR>to wash and cleanse and make her whole again<P><BR>I want there to be a fantastic rainstorm tomorrow with that fantastic full moon we are supposed to get.....I think I would love to dance around the backyard and let it cleanse me.....well, and also make the neighbors wonder....<P>Dylan<P>------------------<BR>so maybe you wanted a martyr....just a regular gal would'nt do..but baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you...Jim Croce

You had me at: <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Today she dresses<BR>for the change she's facing now<HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Aaaahhhhh <sigh><P>And when that rainstorm comes... call me and I'll dance with you! <P>~Sheryl<BR><P>------------------<BR>Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans.<P>~John Lennon

I feel the same way as Sheryl does...just those first lines of that song....Man...do I feel like that.<P>Dylan, sorry you're having a bad day. There seems to be a lot of bad days for me too lately.<P>Hang in there friend...I'm thinking about you....

And wonder they will........the neighbors that is, but who cares. Don't let that stop you. Sorry you are feeling so down. I know the song and it makes me cry. <P>A good cleansing doesn't sound bad at all Like No Trust said, hangin there.<P>Thinking of you and hoping the dawn breaks soon.<P>By the way, I LOVE a full moon.

hey guys!!!!<P>not a BAD day, just a bad day....<BR>H is painting tonight for a lady that knows the OW..... she hates her, says she is evil..but used to be real good friends...this lady even knew about other EMA's this OW had....so, theres a connection even if its slim and there is no 'problem' with this lady, it bugs me...what if the hate is all talk and she is reporting back to OW?<P>paranoia raunning rampant...look!!!!!there it goes.....<P>as for tomorrow night....<P>by the light of the silvery moon...i may just dance even without rain!!! rebel that i am!!<P>I invite you all to join me.....would it not be very cool to know at the exact same time, we are all looking at the most glorious moon in 133 years?<P>let me know.....<P>Dylan

Sorry....couldn't get back into this thread until this morning....did anyone else have a problem entering the forum???

soulless...<BR>I thought I would let you know that it rained where I am last night and i thought of you!<P>Yes I had trouble getting on here....took a couple trys!?<P>amanda<P>------------------<BR>I will love my husband "Always & Forever" <BR>thevancefamily@hotmail.com<P><BR>

Yeah, something must've been going on last night... talk about withdrawls!! Instead, I had to watch my H come home early from work (he never does that) and pack his belongings... he'll be out the day after Christmas, I'm sure.<P>I'm so torn between grabbing him and holding him in my lap and kicking the sh*t out of him... I will talk to my therapist about this tonight... I'm very angry that he is doing this during Christmas. Is he punishing me, his kids, or himself?? Plus, he spent so much money... and I'm left with $60 to buy the remainder of gifts... <sigh><P>But I don't have to go to work!! And I can redo my bedroom just for me!! Small consolation when my H of 20 yrs. isn't in it . Well, 20 yrs. in April 2000.<P>Better turn on that fountain and candles and happy music and begin to pray and meditate for peace, huh??<P>~Sheryl<P>------------------<BR>Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans.<P>~John Lennon

ok, that's it........<P>the moon is full, glorious and beautiful.....and oh so very bright......<P>no rain, but I care not.......<P>see you all later........I'm gonna go dance in the moonlight....let 'em wonder!!!<P>I am going to go and take back some personal power that i allowed to be taken from me when this whole mess began.....<P>no matter what happens with my H, and forevermore in my life.......I hereby declare that i will no longer be a victim....<P>I did nothing wrong.....<BR>I did nothing to deserve this...<BR>I am better than this wallowing place i have allowed myself to sink into.....<P>time to stand up, kick the dirt off, and begin MY life....... <P>see you under the moon, girls, see you under the moon.....<P>Dylan<P><P>------------------<BR>so maybe you wanted a martyr....just a regular gal would'nt do..but baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you...Jim Croce

Here is a song for you...<P>Every finger in the room is pointing at me<BR>I wanna spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring<BR>I got a bowling ball in my stomach<BR>I got a desert in my mouth<BR>Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now<BR>I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets<BR>Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets<BR>I've been raising up my hands<BR>Drive another nail in..just what GOD needs<BR>another victim<BR>Why do we crucify ourselves?<BR>Every day I crucify myself<BR>Nothing I do is good enough for you<BR>Crucify myself every day and my heart is sick of being in chains<BR>got a kick for a dog beggin' for love<BR>I gotta have my suffering so that I can have my cross<BR>I know a cat named Easter<BR>he says will you ever learn?<BR>you're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird<BR>I've been raising up my hands.<BR>drive another nail in<BR>got enough guilt to start my own religion<BR>where are those angels when you need them?<P>Crucify Tori Amos<P><BR>I don't see any guys here flogging themselves endlessly over their affairs, not even 3wishes. Just an observation.<p>[This message has been edited by TheStudent (edited December 22, 1999).]

True enough, the Student... but airheart hasn't been here for awhile... he was one who did!!<P>I'm off to see the priest/therapist... and I will be sure to dance under the moon, if possible!<P>soulloss, ah a Jim Croce quote... I'd better get out some of my stuff and find another one myself!! <P>~Sheryl<P>------------------<BR>Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans.<P>~John Lennon

That song explains why Robin is doing what she's doing. At least thats my interpratstion.<P>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

I like the Collective Soul song - but<BR>H and I used to make fun of it - we thouht is sounded like<BR>"Sh*t gathers rain"<P>lololololol<BR>Really we did! sorry!<P>K