For all you country music fans there's a song on Keith Urban's CD Golden Road that I just love. Its called "Whenever I Run". I hope to hear these words from my WH one day.

I've seen that darkness on the edge of town
The sun come up and the rain fall down
And I've been a fool, yeah I've been around.

And when the world got too much for me
I took off and left a memory
Thinking I'd find something better for me somehow
Oh but now

Whenever I run
Instead of running into the blue
I follow my heart
And there in your arms
Is where I find the love I need
And the best is yet to come
Baby you're the one I run to

I used to quit when it got too tough
Throw in my cards when I was down on my luck
But baby you mean too much to me
So now

Whenever I run
Instead of running into the blue
I follow my heart
And there in your arms
Is where I find the love I need
And the best is yet to come
Baby you're the one I run to.

I never could stay in one place too long
I never could stand that still
Ah but you changed so much in me
And now I know I will

I'm gonna stay where the love is right
I'm so tired of being a bird in flight
Good love takes work
Ah but that's alright
That's alright

Whenever I run
Instead of running into the blue
I follow my heart
And there in your arms
Is where I find the love I need
And the best is yet to come
Baby you're the one I run to

You're the only one
Instead of running into the blue
I follow my heart
And there in your arms
That's where I find the love I need
And the best is yet to come
Baby you're the one I run to

Because when I called you all answered...

Calling All Angels - Train

I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup

When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said

I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

And I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
And private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don't talk for years
And futbol teams are kissing Queens
and losing sight of having dreams
In a world that what we want is only what we want until it's ours

I'm calling all angels
I'm calling all you angels

Our wedding song is a wonderful song (to me) that helps. It brings back amazing memories of our wedding day just over 3 short years ago:


"I Could Not Ask For More" by Edwin McCain (a country singer named Sara Evans also does his version)


Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

Here's another one by Edwin McCain:

"I'll Be"

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up in the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing you said

"In Your Eyes" by Peter Gabriel


Love I get so lost, sometimes
days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are
All my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
In your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
the heat I see in your eyes
Love, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for out survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive
And all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
In your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
the heat I see in your eyes
in your eyes
in your eyes
in your eyes
in your eyes
in your eyes
in your eyes

"Time For Me To Fly" by REO Speedwagon

I’ve been around for you
I’ve been up and down for you
But I just can’t get any relief
I’ve swallowed my pride for you
I’ve lived and lied for you
But you still make me feel like a thief

You got me stealin’ your love away
’cause you never give it
Peeling the years away
And we can’t relive it
I make you laugh
And you make me cry
I believe it’s time for me to fly

You said we’d work it out
You said that you had no doubt
That deep down we were really in love
Oh, but I’m tired of holding on
To a feeling I know is gone
I do believe that I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough of the falseness
Of a worn out relation
Enough of the jealousy
And the intoleration
I make you laugh
And you make me cry
I believe it’s time for me to fly

{refrain} time for me to fly
Oh, I’ve got to set myself free
Time for me to fly
And that’s just how it’s got to be
I know it hurts to say goodbye
But it’s time for me to fly

Oh, don’t you know it’s...
{refrain}

It’s time for me to fly
{repeat to end}

"F*** It" by Eamon

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No


See i dont, know why..i liked you so much
I gave you all...of my trust
I told you i loved you...now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know (ahhh) that i feel


F*** what i said it dont mean sh*t now
F*** the presents might as well throw 'em out
F*** all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
F*** you...you hoe!!! i dont want you back (ahhh)

F*** what i said it dont mean sh*t now
F*** the presents might as well throw em out
F*** all those kisses it didnt mean jack
F*** you, you hoe, i dont want you back


You thought, you could
Keep this sh*t from me, yeah
Ya burnt *****, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz you're done with me

F*** what i said it dont mean sh*t now
F*** the presents might as well throw em out
F*** all those kisses it didnt mean jack
F*** you, you hoe, i dont want you back

F*** what i said it dont mean sh*t now
F*** the presents might as well throw em out
F*** all those kisses it didnt mean jack
F*** you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Ya questioned, did i care?
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my "great one"
Now its...over...but i truly mean im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

F*** what i said it dont mean sh*t now
F*** the presents might as well throw em out
F*** all those kisses it didnt mean jack
F*** you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
[Until the end]

"Make Love Stay" by Dan Fogelberg

Now that we love
Now that the lonely nights are over
How do we make love stay?
Now that we know
The fire can burn bright or merely smolder
How do we keep it from dying away?

Elusive as dreams
Barely remembered in the morning
Love like a phantom flies
But held in the heart
It pales like the empty smile adorning
A statue with sightless eyes.

Moments fleet, taste sweet within the rapture
When precious flesh is greedily consumed
But mystery's a thing not easily captured
And once deceased not easily exhumed.

Now that we love
Now that the lonely nights are over
How do we make love stay?

Moments fleet, taste so sweet within the rapture
When precious flesh is greedily consumed
But mystery's a thing not easily captured
And once deceased not easily exhumed.

Now that we loved
Look at the moonless night and tell me
How do we make love stay?

"My Immortal" by Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have 'hold of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have 'hold of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have 'hold of me
me, me.....


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"Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same.
And all the miles that seperate
disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight, it's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
as the people leave their way to say hello.
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight girl, it's only you and me.

And everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls, and when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me

"100 Years" by Five For Fighting
(this song can bring me to tears because of all of the promise life holds...........)

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

"White Flag" by Dido

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up in surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules that "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All I was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

"Do It For You" by Kid Rock
Been stiin alone
Thinking about the past
Another lonley night
Another empty glass
This path im walking
Always seems to lead no where
I wonder how much you think of me
How we used to laugh
How we used to be
It seems like freedom
Has never had a man so scared

Times might change
Love it comes and goes
How i wish i could have shown you
How deep for you my love goes
And i know this might seem crazy
I would end my life for you
You know i dont want to
But id do it for you
Hey id do it for you
I wonder how much you think of me
It hurts to think the past
Is all that you can see
Now it seems like freedom
Is better then the love we shared

[repeat chorus]

Listen to me
I wonder how long it takes to see
Theres nothing more i want
Then you here with me
Freedoms been knockin
But i refuse to let her in

Times may change
Love it comes and goes
How i wish i would have shown you
How deep for you my love goes
And i know this might sound crazy
I would end my life for you
You know i want to
Come back home and care for you
Baby id do anything for you
Id do anything for you

"Hard Night For Sarah" by Kid Rock

Its been a hard night for sarah
The divorce went through today
Ten years out the window
Shes been faithful all the way
Shes feeling really bitter
Shes feeling lost and small
She wonders where it all went wrong

Its been a hard night for sarah
Shes taken quite a fall

Well he was all she ever hoped for
And she gave him all she had
Never gave a cause to worry
Never hurt her or made her sad

And no one thought to tell her
They all figured that she knew
Just another harmless fling
A phase all men go through

Its been a hard night for sarah
Shes going to have to see it through
Gonna have to see it through

The sun is slowly rising
On another brand new day
The children will be waking soon
And shell send them on their way

Its been a hard night for sarah
Its been a hard night for sarah
Its been a hard night for sarah
But today is another day
Today is another day

Shelter Your Name
Danielle Rose

You are all I am not
Ooh, you are all that I am
Break down these walls
Take all my brokenness
Rebuild me to shelter your name

You are all I am not
Ooh, you are all that I am
Jesus
Break down these walls
Take all my brokenness
Rebuild me to shelter your name

Help me forgive myself
Help me to live the cross I've laid upon my soul
Help me look at myself through your eyes
To see all I am and still be satisfied
Help me forgive myself

You are all I am not
You are all I am not
Ooh, you are all I am
Ooh, you are all that I am
Jesus
Break down these walls
Break these walls
Take all my brokenness
Take all my brokenness
Rebuild me to shelter your name shelter your name
Shelter your name

Within my secrets Jesus there you reside
And I need you to reconcile
To renew all that's inside
People want to love you
Then with your love Jesus
I must love myself humbly too

You are all I am not
You are all I am not
You are all I am
Jesus
Break down these walls
Break these walls
Take all my brokenness
Rebuild me to shelter your name
shelter your name

You are all I am not
You are all I am not
You are all I am
Everything I am
Break down these walls
Break these walls
Take all my brokenness
Take all my brokenness
Rebuild me to shelter your name
Shelter your name

BABY, NOW THAT I'VE FOUND YOU
The Foundations
(John LacLeod and Tony Macaulay)

Baby, now that I've found you, I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you, I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me, you don't need me

Baby, now that I've found you, I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you, I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me, you don't need me

Baby, baby, since first we met
I knew in this heart of mine
The love we had could not be bad
Play it right and bide my time

Spent a lifetime looking for somebody
To give me love like you
Now you've told me that you wanna leave me
Darling, I just can't let you

Baby, now that I've found you, I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you, I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me, you don't need me

Baby, now that I've found you, I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you, I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me, you don't need me

Spent a lifetime looking for somebody
To give me love like you
Now you've told me that you wanna leave me
Darling, I just can't let you

Baby, now that I've found you, I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you, I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me, you don't need me

Baby, now that I've found you, I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you, I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me, you don't need me

I haven't posted on here in a while .. but have been lurking around .. I am a DJ by profession so when I found out about the A I had ALOT of songs that I could listen too. NONE of them really helped when it first happened .. they made me feel better for a little while, but also reminded me of how much I miss my wife. It has been a while now and I'm feeling alot better about myself and my life .. so I thought I would pass a few of these of in hopes that they help someone else ... Here is a list of songs that I listen to a little more often ... they are get over her songs and I miss her songs .. I know it doesn't go with MB principles but they help me when I'm feeling really down ..

Some of these you guys have posted, some you have not.

Keith Urban - you'll think of me ( *** a GREAT song for helping feel better about moving on with your life. This one is my current favorite .. along with stay gone and forgive *** )

Stay Gone - Jimmy wayne ( self explanatory )

unwell - matchbox 20 ( how I felt when I first found out .. how messed up my head was )

Speed - Montgomery Gentry

I'm Movin on - Rascal Flatts ( another great moving on song )

I breath in , I breath out - Brad Paisley

Forgive - Rebecca lynn howard ( says it all )

In a little while - Unckle Kracker

Iris - Goo Goo dolls
I could go on and on ..... Here is a small list of songs that I found helped when I was really upset or angry .. I would listen to these when I work out ( frustration songs ) Hooba stank - Running away, In the end and Somewhere I belong - Linkin Park, never again, and also Someday by nickle back, Headstrong - Trapt, Bring me to life - Evanescence, Wasting my time - Default, Here without you - three doors down, Numb - Linkin Park.... again I could keep going, maybe another time .. I'll see what I can do to put on some lyrics from Jimmy wayne and Keith Urban .. I hope some of these help someone else ... I just went and got the Eamon - F it song and listened to it ... all I can say is OUCH ... I like it but Wow talk about Direct LOL ..

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AMAZED...By Lonestar:

AMAZED Lyrics
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

"Smile" by Tamia

Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it'd be
If he had loved me
Truly loved me yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing
Never happens for me
And so I go around
And just pretend
Loving life for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let them see you sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

Sing it la la la la

Sometimes I sit at home
By the phone hoping he might call me
But he don't call me
But then I realize
Dreams come true aren't for girls like me
Not like me
And so I go around with my head up
Like it ain't no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends
I’m into other things
Because you never let them see you sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

It’s not an easy (thing)
Sometimes it’s hard to (face the truth)
It’s not the life that I would choose (that I would choose)
But what else can I do?
If he don’t love me
If he don’t want me
I’m not about to sit around
Let myself go

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

Sing it la la la la