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I can't anymore.. guys.. I can't anymore. I have the flu, maybe that's why I am getting worse and worse. I cannot carry my husband any longer! Is that so wrong? That I want to leave? I love him so, but I cannot do this anymore to myself. I am tired of crying and feeling so bad. those anti D's do not work....
Je suis venu te dire que je m'en vais! I am going to pack my bags tonight. We took this picture in canada.. Niagara Falls... and its like old western... its one of our official pictures.. I took it down. i couldn't look at myself with him. I cAN"T!!
I let MB down, I know.. I sound like a loser, but uhmm I'm going to take the bus, then the train.. then I will be at the airport. Good thing he gave me money last night.
It's done. I've done the symbolic thing to put the picture away.
bye MBers
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Tamara
You did not let MB down. Recovery does not necessarily mean marriage is always worth continuing. Only YOU know what is right for you. It sounds like your love bank is near on empty. Plan B is to preserve what is left of your love for your husband.
Don;t ever sell yourself short. You are an amazing person. Even while you are in crisis I see posts from you to others to help them. You do what is right for you girl. We are here for you.
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When you were little your parents let you put your hand on the hot stove....they wanted you to learn to protect yourself from physical pain.
Your instincts are to do the same now as an adult when facing intense emotional pain.
There is no right answer. Nobody is let down.
For your own be content that you did all you thought you could do before giving up.
If you truly believe you have then don't beat yourself up over the decision.
But if you have the slightest doubt I would hate for you to spend the rest of your life thinking "if I only would have...."
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Well, his refusal to write a NC letter was the clincher for me. My H is the same. He really believes that after I let him move back in, he will have no contact with OW. Yeah right. He can't do it to save his marriage, but will later.
Please keep us up to date. I don't think this is the end of your marriage. H will wake up right after you are gone.
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Believer -
I am IMing her right now. She is in the bottles again, if you know what I mean.
Any advice???
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NOU CHALE EN PEYI lA!!! uuuhmmm .. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I'm listening to music.. I feel great guys.. Don't worry!! Everyone will be happy at the end.. this is just a moment in our lives we all want to erase. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Oh goodness. Where are you, Believer???
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I think you need to find out where Brussels is. She speaks a lot of french, wonder what she is saying. Maybe it is in France.
I wish she would put the plug in the jug and go to class.
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She is very loopy. She is hurting very badly. I have to shower and go to the MT appointment I am dreading. Please post to her today.
Her WH is home right now. I don't think he is staying the night. Apparently she contacted OW by accident, and now WH hates her (Harudah).
The last she asked me was if she should talk to him, because he came home but she thought he was going to leave and spend the night at his mom's.
I told her I thought she should talk to him. She had her music blaring and was dancing around.
Do what you can. I'll check in later. Good grief!
Love, Amy
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Harudah,
Hang in there. I know how you feel. I am praying for you. If you need someone to talk. Send me your phone number to kzmath@hotmail.com. Please be calm. We are all here for you.
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She must still be dancing....
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seee he came HOME MAD!!!!!!!
he don't beleive me.. he picked up his pillow and ready to leave.... I PUKED ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND CLEANED MYSELF>>>>>>>>>>>>>>. he asked me to take a shower.. but i dont' care.. he can hate me.. best way to end it. WEIRD111111111 he is still here.......... does that mean anything.. the whore is still holding on to him. I hope they are happy together... I wish I could just be zapped away from here.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no mroe dancing for me!!!!! but ok.. as long as I don't feel anything.
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Je suis venu te dire que je m'en vais!
She's saying I've come to tell you I'm going or leaving.
As for the earlier one NOU CHALE EN PEYI lA, I don't really know except I think peyi may be payes which is country.
Harudah, are you self medicating yourself? Have you been to see a doctor for help with this. You cannot do this alone, if you're dreading going home to your mother all of this is not going to get better if you're drinking to cover up the pain.
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OK, I see it never got better for Harudah. Puking sucks, and cleaning it up yourself sucks more. Poor girl. Hopefully, she is sleeping it off. Are you Harudah? Post if you are awake. Believer is worried. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Amy
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Hearbroken -
She also speaks Creole, so not all is French, I think.
Smart girl, hurting lots.
Amy
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<img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> just a sign to say I am still there!!! I am still somewhat together.. arms, legs, head.. all connected.!!!!!!!!
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Sweetie -
Are you having a party all by yourself?
(((((HUGS)))))
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I have been crying for the past few hours.. I have no notion of time anyways.. so alright.. bye everyone.
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Hang in there. See you doctor for some different meds. You don't sound like you are doing well at all. Please take care of yourself.
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What is happening now? Please keep us updated. I promise you, things will get better.
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