I'm smiling ear to ear. My heart is warm not with pain but starting to feel peace. My mind is clear and I feel centered again. This entire ordeal has broken me from my depression of 5 years. I will still go to therapy to find the deeper issues that I might have and clear them. I will still go to the doctors and fix my hormone problems...but I am not scared anymore. Even if i have to get the tumor out of my brain...I'm not scared. I do not fear...I am released from this prison of fear. I am myself again.
Something good did come out of this emotional affair. The true me always seem to see the bright side of things. I have a lot more energy, I feel the music, the sunshine feels wonderful on my face. I can breathe...and taste the air. I can sing from the top of my lungs while working out and not get tired. I can finally sleep well without sleeping pills or crying myself to sleep. Its amazing what happened....But I truly believe that what occured although devistating....was for the better. I FOUND MYSELF AGAIN. NOTHING BETTER THEN FINDING YOU TRUE SELF. regaining strength and believing yourself. We can all do it. We all have to power we just need to believe. I cry now because I am emotional...but this is good. They are tears of joy and tears of appreciation for all the support I have gotten from all of you...my friends. We are all connected by termoil. But if we want to...we can become better people from our mistakes and always enjoy the moment and be enthusiastic about the future.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. I WILL KEEP POSTING. I really do love your comments